Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I cleaned and organized the pantry, yesterday.you just dumped a box,of cookies, out in a pile, loose, into the https://drawer.No care, no consideration or bother.it is then, shoved closed.box tossed on the counter.no problem the drawer has a pile of cookies, that will be crumbs https://now.Doesnt matter I cleaned and organized it for the new food to go there, with the box.no problem, I will arrange them, https://again.For the third time this month.

I cleaned and organized the pantry, yesterday.you just dumped a box,of cookies, out in a pile, loose, into the https://drawer.No care, no consideration or bother.it is then, shoved closed.box tossed on the counter.no problem the drawer has a pile of cookies, that will be crumbs https://now.Doesnt matter I cleaned and organized it for the new food to go there, with the box.no problem, I will arrange them, https://again.For the third time this month.

I need to cut my canvases and put them https://away.I honestly don't want to but it is necessary for me to keep https://space.I feel too confined and too exposed now.is that a thing?

How do you feel after those you admired, keep hurting others?
That, keep hurting you, on purpose and intentionally sabotaging your spirit?

How do "healthy" people deal with this?
Do you pause, join in or question it?
Do you judge or ask the targeted person for clarity?
Do you gang up on them with others or single yourself out?
Or do you ignore, turn face and pretend, invalidating the targeted person even more?
Where do others draw the line?
Seriously asking?

Assumptions about others, that turn into gossip and slander, are weak.
I find, offensively gross and https://intolerant.They show, the messangers true colors and character flaws, their own projections and faults.
I often wondered, do they understand this or are they truly, that blind and unaware?

I need to cut my canvases and put them https://away.I honestly don't want to but it is necessary for me to keep https://space.I feel too confined and too exposed now.is that a thing?

How do you feel after those you admired, keep hurting others?
That, keep hurting you, on purpose and intentionally sabotaging your spirit?

How do "healthy" people deal with this?
Do you pause, join in or question it?
Do you judge or ask the targeted person for clarity?
Do you gang up on them with others or single yourself out?
Or do you ignore, turn face and pretend, invalidating the targeted person even more?
Where do others draw the line?
Seriously asking?

Assumptions about others, that turn into gossip and slander, are weak.
I find, offensively gross and https://intolerant.They show, the messangers true colors and character flaws, their own projections and faults.
I often wondered, do they understand this or are they truly, that blind and unaware?

The funny and ironic thing is, he is cheap but I am https://frugal.I will go without and he spends on himself, saying I buy cheap https://stuff.I buy https://necessity.He will not invest in his house and tells everyone I ruined https://it.He wont help me fix it, at https://all.But tells them, its https://me.Im ungrateful because I want more, worked and gave everything to us, I wanted a better https://future.And in https://writing.Thats when it became a https://problem.A will, my name on the house and reassurance for William.They, didnt want https://us.She didnt want me.
I wanted other, people, over us, all his friends , his family.His, not us, did not and uses, the house, as a excuse.it will be done, by https://me.He was doing this years before and now Im ruined, https://financially.That was his https://plan.He doesn't believe he did a thing wrong, still.

The funny and ironic thing is, he is cheap but I am https://frugal.I will go without and he spends on himself, saying I buy cheap https://stuff.I buy https://necessity.He will not invest in his house and tells everyone I ruined https://it.He wont help me fix it, at https://all.But tells them, its https://me.Im ungrateful because I want more, worked and gave everything to us, I wanted a better https://future.And in https://writing.Thats when it became a https://problem.A will, my name on the house and reassurance for William.They, didnt want https://us.She didnt want me.
I wanted other, people, over us, all his friends , his family.His, not us, did not and uses, the house, as a excuse.it will be done, by https://me.He was doing this years before and now Im ruined, https://financially.That was his https://plan.He doesn't believe he did a thing wrong, still.