Constantbattle

I wanted to ask this question bc....I am currently having a #Constantbattle with my #oldself and #Newyourself and I am just tired of the same shit #cycles #behavorialpatterns ..so I am #beinghonestwithmyself and #processing my #Recovery and #Healing bc #INEEDTOGETBETTERFORMYSELFANDMYSON

I'm a toxic person. I cause everyone added and unnecessary stress!Im always causing agreements (I don't mean to it just happens) . My friends admit I'm scary and and my mum is scared of me. Apparently today I looked at her like I wanted to kill her... I don't remember looking like at or meaning to. If I did then it just happened. I'm the reason everyone in my life agrues and then they all leave.

I'm so alone but it's because I am a horrible person, I'm a control freak, I'm toxic, I am undeserving.
I cant take responsibility . I act like a child, I cant deal with adulting, I cant even manage to pay my phone bill. 3 years I've been trying to take control of my phone bill but no I'm useless.

All my demons have unlocked there cages in my head I can not cope with this anymore.

#Toxic #Imtoxic #depressed #suicidal #Demons #Constantbattle #cantwin #sad #lonely

A walking contradiction is she,
Her heart is made up! Her mind wants to flee...
Trying hard to be somebody...Don’t look at me!
I love you, don’t you love me!? Just go away....please

#MightyPoets #Constantbattle #Anxiety #Depression #makeitstop