Depersonalization Disorder

I am struggling so bad and I don't know what to do anymore. Today my therapist quit on me and my psychiatrist is about to quit on me as well, as neither of them have any solutions or ideas of how to treat me. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 a year ago and was making amazing progress until about April, as I went through a highly traumatic event, and have been stuck in an ever-increasing state of derealization/depersonalization. I am convinced that nothing is real, and then inherently nothing has any purpose. I have been stuck in this dissociative state for too long and I genuinely can't handle it much longer. I am on so many meds and none of them have helped at all, but they were helping until April and then I sunk deeper than I ever have before. I don't know if this is a Bipolar mixed state, psychosis, a personality disorder, or just very intense depression. I don't know what to do. The only reason I am functioning is because of my very intense discipline that I've had since I was young, otherwise I would have lost my job and possibly failed out of college. If anyone has any ideas please share, I am desperate for anything at this point. #Depression #Bipolar2 #DerealizationDisorder #DepersonalizationDisorder #DissociationDisorders #PTSD

Hi, my name is Clear888. I'm curious about how other people cope with derealization & the anxiety it causes

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Hi, my name is MistyBlue. I'm here because I need to find out more info or managing, finding supports, advice for things like what type of travel insurance does everyone use when they have physical & mental health issues? I would like to be able to articulate my diagnosis correctly & so much more.
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Hi, my name is Doctor_Sola. I'm undiagnosed and I'm pretty sure I have a couple mental disorders or illnesses that really aren't fun, and I don't know what to do about it.

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Hi, my name is Maxx95. I'm here because I've become very isolated due to my illness and would like to make some friends who understand what I'm going through. I'm interested in history, music, football (soccer), films, cooking when I have the energy, and comedy. I was doing a history degree, but I had to drop out when I became unwell.

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Hi, my name is JohnChatzis. I'm here because I can listen to anything that happened to you. I have helped people in the past because I had a dark past with dark thoughts that almost made me end my life. I still have thoughts to share though. I am not a specialist. I have still things inside me that bother me and I feel lonely. I can help you help me and you can help me help you. Love

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Hi, my name is mattisacrow1337. I'm here because
I just spent a year where each day I only felt like I was connected and in control of my body for maybe 5 minutes a day. All other time in that year I was in a perpetual state of what I now know were Depersonalization dissassociative episodes. I watched my body, watched this hijacked me neglect my wife, refuse to ever help with the ridiculous amount of housework that she did everyday by herself, I had to see as he complained about life and asked my wife to help and support him and then watch him further neglect her when she needed support and comfort. I watched the two of them argue again and again and again. I sat begging it to let me back in, to stop hurting her, to stop hurting this incredibly loving and trusting marriage that my wife and I had together. But nobody could hear me. The other day my wife told my body that she was ending our marriage. I found myself back in control half a day later. I haven't been able to stop screaming and crying since. I went to her, I begged her to understand what I was trying to tell her. I needed her to know what had happened, what I'd just been through that for a year I was trapped in a living hell. Watching as some semi-me thing worked my body while I sat and watched from outside it. I don't think she believes me. She says she needs to be away from me for a week or two before she'll talk to me again. It ruined my life. Can someone please help me, how can I make her understand that this is real? I love my wife more than I could possibly find words to explain, I don't want her to leave me because I was forced to watch that thing hurt her. I tried, I tried to make everything stop but I couldn't do even the smallest thing. Please I need help getting her to understand. Cause it's going to take a long time for me to recover from what I went through for that year. Without her it'll simply be impossible.
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