Eating Disorders

Do you think I made the right decision? I ended a two year friendship with my friend (and ex), because I found it impossible to cope with him being in a relationship with someone else. The unrequited love I had for him and the jealousy I experienced, plus the feelings of unworthiness and stress of seeing him with someone else caused me a lot of depression and pain. I kept turning to addiction and eating disorder behaviors to cope. And then I thought to myself, "I don't want to deal with this." And decided to address the root cause of the pain, which was being around him. I felt like, well, it can only get more painful. I tried for a year to turn off my feelings for him (and couldn't), if his relationship goes any further I don't want to see it, and if I'm being really honest (though I'm working on this) I don't feel I can be happy for him. Chalk it up to my own failings or the BPD, but I'm working on that part with God. But either way, I decided to end it because being around him hurt, I couldn't see his relationship progress, it was leading me to self-destructive habits, my feelings for him were preventing me from having a healthy relationship of my own, and I kept beating myself up for being single while he's with someone else. We were also very codependent and emotionally enmeshed. Do you think I made the right choice?

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I hope you are all doing okay, I know the world has been absolute chaos for the past ... well forever now. But especially chaotic lately. Know that you aren't alone in feeling lost or confused or even infuriated by the things happening. know that even IF you have a mental illness those emotions are still 100% valid. You're still allowed to have emotions that suit occasions and make sense and are natural. That's exactly what it is. There is a lot of people struggling with so many different things right now. I'm grateful to have a place to come when I need it. A place to share what a lot of hard work has taught me. And thank you all for being here. 🩷🩷

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Hi, my name is BeloveIt973. I'm diagnosed with 2-3 and seeking knowledge for a better understanding of the others.

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Hi, my name is BeloveIt973. I'm diagnosed with 2-3 and seeking knowledge for a better understanding of the others.

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Migraine #PTSD #Grief #OCD #EatingDisorder

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Hi, my name is ashleysocool. I'm here because

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