FAKEFRIENDS

Two people who I thought were my friends just attack me through messager I am beyond hurt by what they said and on top of that one of there grandpas message me calling me down and calling me disrespectful words I just don’t think I want to make any new friends after this

Lately I’ve been in this mindset of needing to talk to people all the time . I have never had a problem being alone and as an introvert being alone is ideal , but lately I have felt really alone and isolated .
I read a quote somewhere that said something to the effect of “the worst place you can be is inside your own head.” Well , as an heavy heavy introvert I live primarily in my head , and all I can think about is the bad that’s happening in the world.
I have always tried my best to be there for people but lately my circle of “ friends “ has made me feel ostrascized for wanting to talk about my fears or even discussing thing s happening currently. I’m frustrated as I feel that when I try to reach out I’m bothering them and beng judged for calling them at all. I admit, I call often to a point where I’m sure it is pretty annoying but it comes from a good place, . I get that people are busy and people have their problems ... I get that and I am not without my own but I don’t appreciate being judged by people who consider themselves my friends. I call because I care , I text because I’m thinking of them , I email to let people know that despite being isolated they are not alone.
I find that when people contact me it’s because they feel obligated or they need something .
I had a falling out with a friend in this circle not to long ago and we still have one mutual acquaintance who for the most part has remained uninvolved in the “drama” but there’s a large part of me that feels I have to hyper aware of what I say or how I say it , for fear or her gossiping with my ex friend behind my back. In a lot of ways I feel that I can’t let my walls down and be authentically myself with this group of people any way because I know anything I say will be used against me .
In a lot of ways I feel that their hostility comes from a resentment of seeing me do well and in a good place right now. That in of itself is very frustrating as they know I have dealt with my fair share of hard times in the past , and now I have one little patch of happiness to myself for the time being and I can’t even enjoy that. I feel like my whole life I have attracted users ,flakes , and bullies . I don’t know why . My ex friend accused me of having trust issues and having extreme paranoia when she herself stabbed me in the back.
I don’t get it , I just don’t get it. Maybe I’m
More out of touch with reality than I thought , and yes I can be obnoxious . I just overwhelmed , over tired really need solid reliable people in my life right now. #FAKEFRIENDS

My friends (although I wouldn't call me that anymore), treat me like garbage and don't take into account that I am a human being like them that has emotions and feelings which get hurt. They never ask me to go out with them and they post them all out together obviously for me to see. They act as if everything is fine when I see them and don't even acknowledge why they didn't invite me out with them. Today, they had pictures of them out at their Christmas meal meet up and I wasn't invited. Usual. I've not said anything about why I wasn't invited yet so how should I go about saying to them? I literally don't care what the outcome is because Im done with these fake people and don't need that type of negativity in my life. It's hard though because Im in the same college as them and I need to do my assessment with the one in my class and sit next to her so I want to keep it civil as possible till them. I have other college friends I hang about with so that's good. I honestly feel like they take advantage out of me at any possible time and this needs to stop. I think they think they can do that to me because Im generally a nice person but there is only so much I can take and this is it. They are toxic in my life and I dont need that. Things are changing. But I have no one to talk to about this and the reason I've said on here Is because I haven't got any other options and I feel so lonely and lost. I feel like somethings wrong with me to get treated like this? I have no close friends and I never have to be honest :((

#Loneliness #FAKEFRIENDS #sad #alone

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Must be something wrong with me and this shouldn’t hurt anymore but it does. I was invited out today for dinner and drinks with a “friend” for her birthday. She invited me a week ago and I was excited to get out of the house for once (i live in the middle of a highway and don’t drive. I have 2 children under 3 and am alone with them everyday). She text me again 2 days ago to see if I’m still able to come . I text her this morning to get a time for meet up and I’m told her plans changed and she went to the city with the other friends that were invited along. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not a hard to talk to person. I understand plans change and that’s okay. I understand that it’s her birthday and she can do what she wants with whoever she wants. My problem is that I wasn’t messaged to have the common courtesy of knowing plans were different and that this happens every time she invites me somewhere. I usually show up and no one else does and they don’t answer me for days after. This also happens with everyone else who ever makes plans with me. But then all of these “friends” get mad when I say I don’t have friends. I’m only good to people if I’m listening to their problems and say zero about my own life. And I’m not worthy of hanging out with anyone. I feel like a big laughing stock, like it’s some long running joke to see if they can break me and everyone who pretends to want me around is in on it. I don’t know why I keep being stupid enough to fall for it and allow it to hurt me.

Why have I just realised that the people who said they would be there for me are not anymore? I had the courage after 3 years to tell them I was sexually assaulted by a memeber of church, who I was friends with. But most of my friends don't want to believe this! I tried reaching out and talking to people instead of botteling it up, and many are not interested. I have only this past year been open about what happened and so people then go "why are you always talking about yourself?!". Like I can't win. I get moaned at by friends for not saying anything, then if I do they complain. What hurts the most is that some of my close friends have now ghosted me (church friends) because they don't believe this person could attack people. It all makes my mental health worse. I don't know what to do! #Depression #Anxiety #panic #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PTSD #SexualAssault #Religion #FAKEFRIENDS #Pain #IntrusiveThoughts

I used to be really truly happy, until people started leaving me. I feel like nobody is truly my friend. I know they care but at the same time they always laugh at me or make fun of me. I try to act stupid and silly because if I’m serious I know they won’t believe me. I think I felt like I needed to better and I developed an eating disorder, and that “fixed” my issues. I honestly felt so proud and confident then. And now I’m recovered but I feel like I have something missing. I feel like I’ve lost motivation. I’m always exhausted and I feel like my friends are fake even though they’re not. #lonely #FAKEFRIENDS #talktome