Time to Let Go
Today, I said goodbye to 15 years of marriage and a 19 1/2 year relationship. When you've been feeling like you're just tolerated or only get any attention when they want something or knew that you just got paid. They don't want to communicate, speak in half truths, hide things until you find out yourself. They had given up on trying to be a father all together and then all the signs of the wandering eye start surfacing. It's just for the best. I want to be happy but I want him to be happy too. I'm not a ball and chain and I don't want to be pittied either. I wanted a faithful, loyal relationship with a partner. To take the mans role in our home and build a life with us. Or even just to communicate and be honest with me. I've done everything he had asked and more. Went back to 50's wife ensemble even. Still not good enough. I then tried to reach out to 3 different ppl for support. Since this is the 1st time since I was 15(2003) since being on my own with 3 kids in tow. I really do feel abandoned , lost and alone. 💔 #Abandoned #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety