highanxiety

We had to up and move so I have to choose what bills to pay with the first few small checks sadly I can't afford My health insurance and I can't swap the Dr if I don't pay it so I will run out of my meds ...and I don't want to loose everything I've worked on I'm so scared ill go backwards suicide attempts depression and making up things that aren't true and making the ones I love miserable I don't want that but I can't pay for my health ins So can't get new Dr to refill meds ...I've got to pay all the main bills !! Ughhh #highanxiety

Howdy, I’m newly joining this group. I’ve got a tornado of stuff medical including but not limited to #Fibromyalgia , #Asthma , #Depression , #highanxiety and #ChronicMigraines . I’ve also been tracking petit mal seizures and going to keep a journal for my 24-hr EEG coming up. I do love advocating and sharing my story because honestly I want to be the person for someone I didn’t have when I was younger and clueless to all this stuff. I found friends and resources and The Mighty has been “first time writer, long time viewer” since I joined and only now started posting.

Sorry if this is scrambled and random.

#Fibromyalgia
I have been regressing lately. The holidays were fun and distracting. Now I am aware of my pain again and it’s at the forefront of my thoughts. I have developed high blood pressure and that means I have to stop HRT (hormones) starting next week. I have had a return of my social anxiety to the point where I now am unable to handle getting together w anyone. I also have become very negative again and I can’t seem to work the CBT and or DBT at this time. We just got ourselves out of debt and now have major home repairs and I need a lot of dental work out of the blue. I had a final break w my sister bc she’s cruel and drunk most of the time and thinks I’m making up the pain bc I’m a baby. The anxiety is crippling and even acute at Trader Joe’s bc the checkout people like to talk. See? All negative! My friend told me she felt blessed and was so happy w her life and I wanted to punch her in the face!?My doc wants me to go back up on a med but I hate to take more drugs bc my life situation is hard. The city I live in is overcrowded and rude and expensive but my husband wants to stay. I don’t seem to be able to be happy even tho I work w homeless teens and it’s really rewarding. More negative! Even this post makes me hyperventilate!