The strongest/weakest person you'll ever met. My heart wants to be free while my mind has me locked in a cage. My borderline personality wants to punish me. Fear of abandonment makes me panic. Sometimes I even isolate the mother in me. A chemical imbalance I can't explain. Depression doesn't like to play, so sometimes my kids have to pay. Anxiety pushes everyone away. So disconnected from the inner me, delirious from lack of sleep I'll go days forgetting to eat. The blood reminds me it's real, protecting my scars from all to see! One day the cut will be to deep. Emotions I can't control, angry out bust bring me peace. God I'm begging you help me find peace. So hear I am you're presence I seek, laying my mental illness at your feet! I don't want you to bare them as your own, I'm not wishing them on someone else!! I'm simply asking for your help. Today is bright an who knows I could get lucky and see the sunshine the next week or two, but when that light starts to fade be with me!! Theses demons are evil... insecurities they seek, mental illness has become the prey!! Satan get stronger with every soul he claims! Be with me when living and dying look the same! Wrap your arms around me because most days in the dark I feel safe.
*intermittent explosive disorder