lostjob

What’s the point in living? I don’t currently have a job and haven’t for the past year. I can tell my family can’t stand being around me (my mum fully ignores me now since moving back home) it’s like I’m invisible.
I thought I was okay after breaking up with my boyfriend and that even though I don’t have a job I can still find purpose with other interests that I have (web development online, e-commerce, etc ) but I just feel as if there if no hope left for me. I know that sounds like I’m being lazy or giving up but I feel so numb that apart of me doesn’t even care anymore.
In a way I wish I could go back to my old life where I was making people happy because I was working (but stuck in a place I hated) & now due to COVID I can’t even get a job. My social skills have completely gone down hill now, I don’t even know if going to an interview and starting a job would be possible. It’s so hard I just need motivation I’ve lost all hope in myself. I’m crying as I’m writing this because I’m sitting alone in my bedroom isolating myself from everyone. I’m tired and I’m done with being me. Does any one else relate? #lostjob #isolated #Capitalism #unsocial #anxious #COVID19

I lost my job at the beginning of 2020 due to mental health issues. I was fired. This was incredibly shameful and I’m still dealing with feelings of shame to this day. (Even though I could not help what I was going through at the time)
I’m 22 years old and I now constantly feel this pressure to be perfect and have the right job, right group of friends, etc. I am told by my parents that these years of your life are supposed to be the best yet I have been diagnosed with depression & anxiety and already feel so burnt out. I feel that this is not normal as none of my other friends have dealt with this. Ibe lost all confidence after this and am feeling a constant battle everyday just to survive myself. I know it comes down to thoughts at the end of the day but I honestly can’t get out of my own head. I am in fear I’m ruining my relationship with my partner and not being able to physically do the things I used to.
So that makes me feel worried and scared for my future. Does anyone experience this need for everything to be figured out at such a young age and fear that your depression will take over your life in your 20’s... #lostjob #Depression #Anxiety #Shame #Adulthood #alone #help #22

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