“It’ll get better, it’s temporary, there’s so much to live for”…what to do when none of those seem true? Help
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I wish I could say my depression/anxiety has gotten better. I wish I could say my grief over losing my mom a year ago has gotten better…
The truth is; I feel much worse than ever. For many reasons, like reasons many of us have. I feel empty. Hopeless; lonely, lost…like everything is pointless. I GENUINELY feel I have no real reason to exist. I can’t come up with any reason. Not one.
When you attempt to share with others; or read things…you’re met with the “this is only temporary, the sun will shine tomorrow”, or “it’ll get better” and things along those lines.
But those things just aren’t true. Not when you’ve seen no change or truth to those words in 20 years. Does anybody else feel that way? I’ve felt this way for almost my entire life.
I’m not living…I’m existing. The normal advice of “find a hobby” or “travel” etc etc…it just doesn’t help or work. Especially when you don’t have money to travel etc.
My loneliness runs deep…and the thought of being more of a burden creeps in. I’m not sure how to feel better; but I do want to feel better. I just want to be happy.
#help #Depression #Anxiety #sad #lonely #Loneliness #empty