maladaptive daydreaming

Hello

My name is Flora, I’m 40 years old. I am from Brazil, so first of all, I am so sorry for any misspelling or grammar mistakes.

Well, I have so many things to share and learn! I have suffered from C-PTSD since childhood because I am a survivor of abuse and I come from a very dysfunctional family.

I've been struggling with depression, migraine and maladaptive daydreaming since my early teens. I suffer from social anxiety, I have a very hard time dealing with people in general.

I am still learning how to manage some of my worst symptoms and manage my worst days. Everyday I discover something great about myself.

I will do my best to share my stories! Thank you!

#SocialAnxiety #PTSD #Depression #Migraine #CPTSD #MaladaptiveDaydreaming

I’ve been struggling with derealization and maladaptive daydreaming since around my trauma 4 years ago. It has been incredibly hard to overcome, i stare at the wall for hours on end and have no idea i’m doing it. sometimes i can catch myself and try to come back, and sometimes i could stay up all night staring and only realize it in the morning. it’s really destroyed my life and i feel like there’s no way to get better. please share tips, grounding myself is hard #MaladaptiveDaydreaming #dissociativedisorders

I was just thinking about this just now. I daydream regularly and there are times that some of these daydreams feel real. I don't remember certain parts of my childhood, but sometimes there are moments that come back to me and they feel as if I was there again. I've spent a lot of time "living in my head" for as long as I could remember. It's like I've got a thousand tabs open with worlds and storylines. I'm sure to a lot of people this sounds completely normal and it probably is. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MaladaptiveDaydreaming #Daydreaming

Is it possible that because of depression one can lose interest and motivation to study? I mean I'm trying to study but negative thoughts consumes me. I've watched a lot of people have studied and made their career while they were depressed or having mental illness. So I always ask myself if it's my excuse or mental illness.

#MaladaptiveDaydreaming #

Things are pretty bad. They always are. But this month especially. Anniversary of an attempt is coming up. Just reminds me that I failed. And I wish it would have worked. February has always been my ideal suicide month. I’m tired of the psychosis. And not having my own identity. I don’t know who I am. There’s just so much confusion in my mind. My brain feels so broken. I usually say it feels like scrambled eggs. But lately it’s just felt hazy and broken. I wish I didn’t have to go through this alone. There’s just no one who can support me in the way I desire. I fantasize about having friends who act as caregivers that I could live with and get support from. Like a mental health roommate lol. It’s exhausting taking care of myself. More than anything I think I want physical contact. Someone to just lounge on the couch and watch a movie with me. Maybe get a little cuddled up like friends do at a sleepover or something. I just want to feel someone physically caring for me. I need that type of touch support. I’m all alone. And it hurts like a bitch. Everyday I just ache. I’m sure there’s people out there who if I got close with would care for me in that way. But I can’t just wait around to meet them. I can’t live with this pain that long. I just want to be held and comforted with zero judgement. I want to speak freely about my thoughts without getting hospitalized. But that will never happen. Just have to keep day dreaming about it until I die. #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #DID #Suicide #lonely #SuicidalThoughts #rant #Depression #MaladaptiveDaydreaming #Maladaptivecoping

I’m wondering what other people do to manage their constant ideas and stories. I myself like to write, what to you like to do?

#MentalHealth . I'm not very good with people either. As a kid growing up, I was quite lonely even at school. From the 1st grade. Now whenever I try form friendships, mostly they don't last very long because I get too clingy or annoying. I do get easily obsessive I don't know how to control that. And I've been told that I'm odd. I tend to escape reality through #MaladaptiveDaydreaming, making friendships in my head and being accepted by characters. But now I wanna learn how to face reality because I'm growing up and my life now needs my full attention.