Methaddiction

I just realized how old these posts are, and the time between them- we’re a sad group... anyone still here? Who’s still struggling? Anyone manage to get some clean time? Anyone not know that there’s fentanyl in almost all meth going around now? Anyone tried a prescription for Vivance as a replacement therapy? (Not approved use, but its being talked about)

What else is going on with everyone? They ask you not to talk in 12 step if you’re still using, and since I cant stay stopped I have nowhere to talk, which is why I appreciate this space so much. If you have stopped, what is your current favorite thing about not using, and your current thing you’re struggling with?

Perhaps for us who are still using as well- what is your favorite thing/strongest attachment to it? What is the thing you hate most about it?

Photo- my buddy and me sending love to a friend who got out and is still clean. We all wish we could be together, but we know the reality too
#Addiction #Methaddiction #Recovery #Relapse #retread #gottagetupandtryandtryandtry

I got out of rehab on July 8th off this year and made it to the 90 day mark and then screwed it up, got clean for a couple weeks, screwed it up, and that went on 3 times now. What should I do?

I have an opportunity to go to a 90 day program so I can obviously get the help I need and so I can get custody of my daughter back. Well I never showed up on my check in date. I made excuses and justified why I couldn’t go that day and it would be no big deal to just go the next week. Wellll.... my grandmother became very sick and hospice was at my grandparents home along with about 20 of my family members. I stayed at my gramas house and right by her side everyday before she died on the morning of Aug 1st right after I listened to my new favorite song with her that I knew she would love too. I also promised her that I would go to rehab and get my life together so my daughter and myself could live the life she would be proud of. Here it is almost 3 weeks later and I am still not checked in. I know I am the most selfish, addicted, careless, hypocrite that I never thought this low was possible for me. My daughter is my whole life. She saved me from continuing my heroin addiction and possibly overdosing. Her dad is the reason CPS got involved and I was clean for 3.5 yrs then relapsed 3 days before she was removed from my care. I know what I need to do but I keep numbing all the feelings and emotions that flood me from time to time. Please help me. Tough love. Your experience. Anything. If I lose my babygirl I know I won’t be here on earth for much longer. Thank you XoXo
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