Relationshipsborderline

I'm currently destroying my relationship. My anxiety has completely taken over and is effecting everyone. I can't open up to my partner with months in fear she will abandon me. I want to talk to her but I go blank and get anxious ill say something wrong. I love her so so much and how I am is affecting her own mental health and I'm disgusted. I don't know what to do...
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I'm a person with Borderline personality disorder who is in a relationship with someone with #Schizophrenia ....both of us are unmedicated. He seems to be holding it all together for the most part. He has anger issues but never really speaks on his hallucinations. He had no problem showing affection for the first year n a half we have been together....but now, he's cold and distant. He's not the same person. I feel like I'm losing him and there's nothing I can do to stop it. He doesn't speak to me about anything really but has no issue talking to other people. Especially if it's meaningless conversation. I'm lost and I don't know what to do. I'm taking this rejection really hard and have turning to my horrible coping mechanisms. Can we survive this??? Or is it inevitable that we will not last? We used to talk marriage...how do I reach him?? How can I get him to open up to me?? #Relationshipsborderline #mentalhealthrelationship #lovesucks #canwebesaved

my bpd has started causing so many arguments and fights. because of how it makes me. I just wish I could stop it. I don’t want to be like this.
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tried to talk to my boyfriend about my feelings, (we’ve been going through a really rough patch) and after i was finished talking i asked what he thought.
he proceeds to tell me he wasn’t even listening to anything i said because to him it was nonsense.. i’m not sure what to feel or say
i’m always the one that needs to talk about things to feel better and maybe i’m just getting to be an annoyance to me but .. is my BDP the problem or is he?

I currently realized I’m BPD. I have done intense idealization against whom I love and don’t know how to manage it.
Maybe, I should learn to recognize my too-far idealizations. Does anyone have nice ideas to do that?

I’m on an amazing once in a life time holiday and had an amazing couple of days. Now my brain is being horrible and I don’t know how to cope when I’m so far away from all my coping methods and information. I don’t want to ruin the holiday but it feels like my brain will #struggling #NotOK #MentalHealth #Relationshipsborderline

I am currently in a relationship with somebody that gives me a lot of space mostly because he is very independent and self sufficient and, in a way, I feel like this makes me stronger when facing this abandonment issue but somehow my brain has hacked itself to believe that actually he does not really care about me at all and does not know how to even take care of me.