Schizoaffective Disorder

There was one time I was hospitalized in a residential treatment center in Florida and one of the female mental health techs that I kept talking to and opening up to told me to make a wish and it will come true. I feel like the wish is coming true but it wasn’t even like a big wish. I wish I made a better wish. I wish that I can have 100 more wishes come true because honestly right now my life sucks and I am barely living. I hope I can get my 100 wishes one day soon. It would mean the world to me if I do.
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We all have parts of ourselves we hide—not just from others, but from ourselves. Carl Jung called this the "shadow self": all the traits, feelings, and desires we've pushed down because they didn't fit who we thought we should be.
Here's the thing: your shadow isn't evil. It's just unconscious. Maybe you pride yourself on being patient, so you've buried your anger so deep you can't access it even when someone crosses a line. Maybe you see yourself as logical, so you've exiled your capacity for spontaneous joy.
You can spot your shadow in what triggers you. The traits you despise in others? Often they're mirrors of what you've disowned in yourself. That "needy" person who exhausts you might be reflecting the dependency you won't let yourself express.
Integration doesn't mean acting on every impulse. It means acknowledging the full range of your humanity so you can choose how to express it.
Here's what matters: your shadow also holds your unexpressed gifts. The authority you've hidden because it felt impolite. The creativity you've suppressed because it seemed impractical. The vulnerability you've locked away because it felt dangerous.
Jung said we don't become enlightened by imagining light, but by making the darkness conscious. When you stop running from your shadow, something shifts. The anger becomes healthy boundaries. The "selfishness" becomes self-care. The power you feared becomes authentic strength.
You're not broken for having a shadow; you're human. Becoming whole means gathering the pieces you left behind-especially the dark ones-and realizing they were never meant to be lost, but to complete you. #MentalHealth #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

My highest weight was 190. I was never the best looking and men never hit on me. All the attractive men I ever liked rejected me and made comments about me & my appearance. My dad is forcing me to diet even if I get skinny I won’t be happy with the way I look because I have never been pretty like a doll.

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I used to go online and pretend to be other pretty girls to talk to attractive men and when all these men found out who I really was; I got called ugly. There was one guy in particular his name was Mike; he was a white guy with muscles, he called me ugly and fat. I got so much attention from men when I was posing as these pretty girls online when in reality when I am me, no attractive men talk to me or even pay interest in me. I hate the way I look. It sucks. Throughout my whole life men have rejected me. There are so many pretty girls out there that are depressed that I would love to look like. I just feel like I am different that I don’t look pretty like the other girls.

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Hi, my name is nightmaregirl. I'm here because I’m curious about how people with my same diagnosis experience and live with our shared disorder.

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