This is another layer of shame I have been buried under from the beginning of my existence. Step one, I am at least more conscientiously aware. I am waking up
I have only had a very intangible and vague sense that “I am shame”. Only now am I starting to identify why I was made to “feel” shame of no fault of my own. I need to unburden myself from shame. It does not not need to define me. There is not anything fundamentally wrong with me. The distorted belief I have been holding for so long.
I internalized the mixed up, confusing unhealthy emotions my parents infused me with from my first breath. It does not matter they did not intentionally or maliciously intend to the result is just as devastating. At least I can start to heal. It’s not easy even with this new awareness but for me knowledge is power.
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