Am just needing friends. As a family member , who is very judgmental, very negative, has mood swings regularly, healtm and mental problems too is truly make life quite uneasy. All I truly do is hope and pray for her as i deep down love her. Anything that I do as her caregiver, she sees as it's an argument and threatening in many ways. She is saying that my mental illnesses and me being in the LBGTQIA family is getting the best of me. Quite hard to be myself. Am trying to remain calm, relax, stop crying, stay away from her, and long to be me. Am so confused and quite alone. #suicidal Ideations, #Depression , #Spiritual and Religious Traumas,# Anxiety, # CPTSD, #MentalHealth