For the love of cow manure...this is gonna get good folks.
WHAT IS UP WITH ALL THESE 35+ EARLY 40s GUYS!!!!. I need to vent for a minute. And they are Laten & Black. Praise God they keep sliding off the radar as fast as they pop on. Thank you Father!!! JEEPERS!!!I am still getting myself up by my bootstraps. I have a few things to get in order & it's all in God's timing & provision.
The latest one is Brazilian. OIY!!! I know what I said the night my late husband passed. Laten isn't so bad, it not the culture so much as it's that I really prefer salted caramel skin tones. Husband #2 was the final nail in the coffin for my color. And I gave up on them. Hubby #3 'passed & I was done with all men....and then my Father spoke. We had words but I agreed with him. He has his preferences on what man I should have. We have been brokering ever since Javi went home to heaven to be with our Father.
They ALL SAY THE SAME THING!!!! Your so pretty & sweet. DUDES!!! It's not looks I am into it helps but it is NOT the primary target!
Let me turn theTABLES!!! How do you worship?, what shape is your heart in?, Are you between 45-63? Are you from the north ( God wasn't specific where up North), seeing I am in S.FL, but he'll be younger than Javi. Of a priestly nature & order. Javi is the stepping to the next guy.
I don't believe in having boyfriends, they don't work for me, I am like moving towards biblical structured relationship that honors God above all.
Why can't I hear: Oh, I love your brains & I love the condition of your heart, when you worship our Father I am awe struck by your passion to worship him without holding back. Like can we work on a friendship first? Can I test drive you in a time of prayer with someone who needs prayers? Can I minister along side you to see what we're like when we pair up on it?
Can you grow to love me flaws & all? We fall in love with the clothes we buy & bring home- I am not into falling love with someone. I want to grow in it.
I like my solitude, but I like to socialize too. Can you do things on your own- healthy things? Pray alone and with me? Can you do solitude too? A relationship is not easy. It takes dedication & loyalty, maturity, lots of humor, prayer, love it's not always simple. I am a deep person, I am very different on purpose I don't want the world in me, but I want to make it a better place to live.
I am hard core on Proverbs 31:29 the very first kiss God ever gave me out of scripture. I am old school,GenX, raised in TX, Transparent cause lying takes up too much energy. Yes I am alot of fun, lots of energy, deep, empathic, brilliant, funny, deep down my Father's wishes come first.
And I don't want to loose myself identy in an intimate arrangement by the Lord.
He is he & I am who I am but our Father brought us together to do more for him than we could alone. And I am content till he comes along.
Thankbyou for letting me vent.
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