I remember in a casual conversation my mom once said, I have mood shifts, and possibly you might have BPD, because of my genes. I laughed it out, and I found that what she said was true. All these days I was acting as per my mood, if I’m feeling sick I inflict pain to my loved one as well.
People say try mindfulness or do exercise to overcome these feelings, but they didn’t work for me!
But then I did these things to overcome my self-described BPD:
1. Suppressed my anger:
This might sound really disappointing if you have anger issues. But, when you think of suppressing your anger, silly things happen to test your patience. This might bring you fatigue in the starting, but eventually, you will get used to being normal after two weeks or so.
2. Suppressed my emotions:
The worst part is, that I suppressed my emotions which means I didn't even express it if I was at the epitome of my happiness. Because when I become extremely happy I expect all things to be good. And when I meet up with the slightest disappointment then I cause mayhem to my loved one, and to my mental health.
Well, if you feel like you’re inheriting a bad gene from your parents, don't push the blame on them and delay improving yourself. We can do almost anything to improve ourselves only if we put in the right effort. When you try to cut off your bad habits, it's almost similar to cancer, even if you heal the aftermath is really big. For me, I still feel moody over trivial things, but bursting out with anger is not my thing anymore, that’s what I understood. And if you are struggling, remember if you’re struggling to be a better person it is worth it.
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