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Hi, my name is John S, ChronicASJohn. I'm joining after finding an interesting profile of a Mighty member who also is a blogger about their personal experiences navigating life with a serious chronic illness, or more typically several interconnected conditions.
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I have my oldest brother who had a stroke this year. We have always spoken and never had and any issues ( unlike my other siblings that’s another post).
When I was younger my brother more than once sexually assaulted me.
I don’t know if it actually considered that
I was sexually assaulted by my father when I was a child and raped at 15 by an older man.
My brother who is 20 years older than me tried to kiss me on more than one occasion this was when I was in elementary school. He I found out a few years ago was also along with my brothers and my sister were sexually assaulted by my father as well.
So the situation is idkw but after he had his stroke I just couldn’t speak to him.
I did only speak to him because of my mother. I did tell my mother when I was younger and I can only say she made excuses for him and begged me not to not talk to him.
I love my mother very much and we have a very good relationship except for this issue. So I haven’t spoken to him since his stroke and I feel extremely guilty for it.
He has been trying to get in contact with me but I have thwarted contact.
My husband knows and of course he says I should not feel guilty and doesn’t understand why I had been talking to him all these years.
I don’t know if I should say something to my mom who is 85. I don’t think it would do anything but upset her or cause and arguement. Or bother saying anything to my brother. Which idkw I feel bad saying anything which doesn’t make sense.
I know I should have gone to therapy years ago but does anyone have any suggestions how I should proceed in the interim ?
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The grief of losing another food from my diet
I have #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS which also triggers #Migraine s. When I got diagnosed I was started on the low fodmap diet and after elimination and reintroduction I could eat two of the six of the fodmap groups... and fodmaps are in almost everything. Over the years since I have started reacting to more and more foods. Now I react to all of the fodmaps, and even some in "low" fodmap quantities. I'm also no starch for my #axialSpondyloarthritis (#AnkylosingSpondylitis ). So my diet has become VERY limited.
This week I've identified another new trigger and lost yet another food: strawberries.
It may seem like such a small thing, but my heart is broken. I love strawberries and they have been a staple in my diet since I developed IBS. Now for some reason I'm reacting to them, even in a low fodmap quantity 💔
I struggle enough with food as it is. There is so much I can't have it's hard to find food I can eat without consequences and I'm bored of what I can eat. Strawberries were one of the few foods I still enjoyed and looked forward to eating. Now it feels like there are no treats left.
I miss food.
This is just another loss on the #ChronicIllness journey. And I will grieve for this one as I have all the others. And when I am done I will pick myself up and move forwards, because there's nothing else I can do 😞
(I've been working with a functional medicine practitioner for nearly a year to try and improve my gut health and be able to eat more foods long term, which may be why this setback is quite so deeply emotionally painful.)