Bipolar 2 Disorder

Keeping busy... trying something new

# Bipolar2, # Fibromyalgia, #Migraine , #OccipitalNeuralgia

Tomorrow I’m attending the Inspire Centre for therapy and assistance to help with my substance abuse issues. Here’s what I have written for them. If you have any suggestions or advice on what I’ve written, please let me know in the comments section below 👍

Last time I had a drink - 9th Sept.
Last time I took Cocaine - 9th Sept.

• Use was plain and simply an escape. An escape from the noise and chatter and chaos that I have to put up with 24/7. It might only have been for a couple of hours, but I needed it.

• It’s like my prescription drugs, that were working brilliantly, became less effective and the Bipolar was more prevalent causing this gap, a void that had to be filled, and I chose to fill it with alcohol and Cocaine.

• I know that my actions aren’t the best way to deal with it but I was just desperate. I know that mixing the two together forms Cocaethylene in the Liver, and this is Cardiotoxic.

• Without the Cocaine I wouldn’t have been able to write this explanation. My Bipolar medication robs me of my ability to express myself and explain my experiences in any way. It makes me numb. It’s a different numbness than that of what the Depression brings, but it is a numbness nonetheless.

• I don’t think I’ve got a substance abuse problem, but I’ve got a Mental Illness problem that isn’t being addressed. My meds worked well for a long time from when I started this combination. Slowly, I feel like the Bipolar chipped away at them and their ability to remedy the problem that the Bipolar caused, became less productive.

• After time, they (the medication) have become less effective, less efficient if you will. There is no cure for this illness but just a remedy to keep it manageable. I feel that they need reviewing and increasing where possible to avoid the dips in my recovery from this terrible affliction that consumes me relentlessly for every single minute of every single day.

• There is an onslaught of gaps in my psyche which are voids of emptiness that are being filled by the Bipolar and not the medication. It’s as though it has been setting me up to fall in its trap. Relentless in pursuit of finding a way in which impacts on me. It’s horrible.

#Addiction #Alcoholism #AlcoholAbuse #CocaineDependence #SubstanceRelatedDisorders #MentalHealth #MightyTogether

For many of us, shifting of seasons can effect our physical & mental health. This is a gentle reminder we could all use.
#AddictionRecovery #Addiction #Agoraphobia #AutismSpectrumDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarIIDisorder #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #Schizophrenia #Lupus #ChronicFatigue #Grief #SjogrensSyndrome #SuicidalIdeation

For many of us, shifting of seasons can effect our physical & mental health. This is a gentle reminder we could all use.
#AddictionRecovery #Addiction #Agoraphobia #AutismSpectrumDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarIIDisorder #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #Schizophrenia #Lupus #ChronicFatigue #Grief #SjogrensSyndrome #SuicidalIdeation

I bought these large dolls & have them sitting in my living room (where I spend my time) and they're great company. I'm housebound, & get a bit lonely, & between my cat & these doll friends here with me, well, it really helps. #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #Bipolar2 #Disability

I bought these large dolls & have them sitting in my living room (where I spend my time) and they're great company. I'm housebound, & get a bit lonely, & between my cat & these doll friends here with me, well, it really helps. #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #Bipolar2 #Disability

Here’s a link to a blog I wrote about what Bipolar Depression is to me and my explanation of it. Let me know if you agree or have any other experiences with it.

Living with Bipolar Disorder: Bipolar Depression

#MentalHealth #MightyTogether

I've just recently discovered COLORING apps! I tap,tap,tap the color in, & it's really stress-reducing. Helps me cope & get thru my Anxiety & the many Acute Stressers I live with. These are just 4 pictures I've done. It's from an app "Gown Color". I found the Many many horribly invasive adds too much to take, & were increasing my stress. A waste-right? Yeah, so I choked up $52 year subscription. But I figure, it's worth it for the benefits I get throughout each day . I love the fashions on this app. Beautiful gowns & dresses. I used to love to dress - to dress sharply. Now I live in PJ's & loungewear, unless a visitor comes for an hour or two. With #Fibromyalgia - the #ChronicPain & #ChronicFatigue that goes with it, I need to be as comfortable as I can. Most clothes are either uncomfortable or just plain painful to wear all the time.its it's fun to get to see these beautiful fashions turn colorful, as I tap away my #Anxiety . #PTSD #Depression #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Bipolar2

I've just recently discovered COLORING apps! I tap,tap,tap the color in, & it's really stress-reducing. Helps me cope & get thru my Anxiety & the many Acute Stressers I live with. These are just 4 pictures I've done. It's from an app "Gown Color". I found the Many many horribly invasive adds too much to take, & were increasing my stress. A waste-right? Yeah, so I choked up $52 year subscription. But I figure, it's worth it for the benefits I get throughout each day . I love the fashions on this app. Beautiful gowns & dresses. I used to love to dress - to dress sharply. Now I live in PJ's & loungewear, unless a visitor comes for an hour or two. With #Fibromyalgia - the #ChronicPain & #ChronicFatigue that goes with it, I need to be as comfortable as I can. Most clothes are either uncomfortable or just plain painful to wear all the time.its it's fun to get to see these beautiful fashions turn colorful, as I tap away my #Anxiety . #PTSD #Depression #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Bipolar2