Bipolar 2 Disorder

I was on a walk and used both earbuds. Since I had #PTSD from trauma I only used one earbuds when listening to music fear of someone running up behind me. I let my guard down which was scary but I’m ok

I was on a walk and used both earbuds. Since I had #PTSD from trauma I only used one earbuds when listening to music fear of someone running up behind me. I let my guard down which was scary but I’m ok

My depression was so mild after my intense hypomania now it’s elevated again. I was so happy walking into Starbucks today and I was flirting with the man who waited on me. I had a risky thought walking around today.

My depression was so mild after my intense hypomania now it’s elevated again. I was so happy walking into Starbucks today and I was flirting with the man who waited on me. I had a risky thought walking around today.

I just came off of a 5 day hypomania episode. I had lots of delusional thoughts about jobs. I told my group chat that I wanted to be a criminal lawyer, defense attorney, state attorney and a federal prosecutor and I was going work each job 7 days a week and take the highest pay they got from them. Everyone kept telling me that’s impossible to do that and u need a college degree. I didn’t believe them at all. I was talking to my therapist and took there side. I told him I found a lab that will make a cure for my mental illness. I flirted with my therapist and said I find saxophone very sexy and it puts me in the mood then I asked him what puts u in the mood. He said we are not talking about me we are talking about you. I don’t remember anything after that. I texted him did I cross a boundary or was I inappropriate with you and he said you did not do anything inappropriate or cross a boundary.

I just came off of a 5 day hypomania episode. I had lots of delusional thoughts about jobs. I told my group chat that I wanted to be a criminal lawyer, defense attorney, state attorney and a federal prosecutor and I was going work each job 7 days a week and take the highest pay they got from them. Everyone kept telling me that’s impossible to do that and u need a college degree. I didn’t believe them at all. I was talking to my therapist and took there side. I told him I found a lab that will make a cure for my mental illness. I flirted with my therapist and said I find saxophone very sexy and it puts me in the mood then I asked him what puts u in the mood. He said we are not talking about me we are talking about you. I don’t remember anything after that. I texted him did I cross a boundary or was I inappropriate with you and he said you did not do anything inappropriate or cross a boundary.

Hi, I've lived my entire life with my dad who has bipolar 2, although he is medicated and a very responsible parent and also feels guilty about me having to witness his episodes, talking bout the matter was a taboo even with my parents, I ended up suffering because of this as I had no one to reassure me or talk to me about my feelings, I ended up creating a shell and I have been diagnosed with both schizoid and paranoid personality disorders, which my psychiatrist believes besides genetics, my childhood has played a huge role in it. As of now I'm extremly suicidal and depressed, I have no way to live separately from my parents and being in my father's presence even if he is smiling is irritating feels dangerous. I am losing my mind and spiraling every second of the day and i have failed multiple attempts. Is there any way to distract me from these thoughts amd give me a peace of mind besides medication? My psychiatrist said I need antipsychotics but I am in an unfavourable situation and unable to take meds. And family therapy is not possible due to my father being sensitive.

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