Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Am I gullible, yes.
Am I too trusting, yes.
Do I bother people, Not at all.im home, alone.
Do I reconnect with those, who, don't know me? https://No.Do I watch other peoples lives online? No.
Do you? Yes.
Did people make it their business, to hurt me? yes.
Do I understand why? NO.
Have I asked?Have I asked it ti STOP? https://Yes.Multiple times.
Has it? No.
Am I a punchline, a scapegoat and gossip topic for insecurity? Yes.
Is it all contradicted by my actual life? Yes.
Are people that aweful?
It seems that way.
Was, I aware?Yes.
For years, three exactly.
And I waited for repair and they, wasted it,pushing me away.
Dead can, dance?Yes but Not so much, https://now.Every couple months Im reminded and removed, some https://more.Proved it with https://William.Show me proof my Son was with https://him.I will give Will his space and his reasons will stay in his heart and it will hurt https://him.He is, my https://world.I purposefully cut the cord and was honest with him and now regret that honesty about my https://life.Digging up some past relationships, collecting my ex's and taunting my family with it is sad and I'm afraid of https://them.I wish he'd get help, be clear and not be taken advantage of, by others, to hurt https://me.Two wrongs do not even out hurt or the damage caused by another. I have nothing now, have been shown who they are and what they are capable of. All involved, are https://complisant.I shouldn't have to wait for something to happen.
Prove https://it.Prove he did these things to me and I'll walk away.be honest with me and I will, leave https://quietly.Be transparent and I will let you live outside this house and you can have your girlfriends and your family, all your lives can merge as one and I get to live in https://peace.Everytime your goons show up, you are told and you flip it on me.no more horses, thunderstruck, whores or https://lies.You lie to me,daily, to my face, you, withhold and deflect instead of share and https://include.I am a dependant, not treated like a wife, spouse or partner, in any definition of the https://word.I am ashamed and https://embarrassed.I will be selling the car, my belongings and my son is not the one, I raised https://anymore.They made him mediate and be the messenger, the referee and criticized https://him.They used him, as a pawn. He is not https://okay.He is why I stayed,why is that wrong, to want a stable home and commitment for a kid? I am in this position because of my https://choices.I gave it all, to this house, to them and to others, to support https://others.I am wrong for not saving it https://all.I let him play me for a fool,I couldn't see https://it.How can someone do this to someone? Im no https://one.I have nothing and ask for nothing.

Someone with hero syndrome shouldn't cry being used, when they create the choas to begin with and are the ones using us.

Am I gullible, yes.
Am I too trusting, yes.
Do I bother people, Not at all.im home, alone.
Do I reconnect with those, who, don't know me? https://No.Do I watch other peoples lives online? No.
Do you? Yes.
Did people make it their business, to hurt me? yes.
Do I understand why? NO.
Have I asked?Have I asked it ti STOP? https://Yes.Multiple times.
Has it? No.
Am I a punchline, a scapegoat and gossip topic for insecurity? Yes.
Is it all contradicted by my actual life? Yes.
Are people that aweful?
It seems that way.
Was, I aware?Yes.
For years, three exactly.
And I waited for repair and they, wasted it,pushing me away.
Dead can, dance?Yes but Not so much, https://now.Every couple months Im reminded and removed, some https://more.Proved it with https://William.Show me proof my Son was with https://him.I will give Will his space and his reasons will stay in his heart and it will hurt https://him.He is, my https://world.I purposefully cut the cord and was honest with him and now regret that honesty about my https://life.Digging up some past relationships, collecting my ex's and taunting my family with it is sad and I'm afraid of https://them.I wish he'd get help, be clear and not be taken advantage of, by others, to hurt https://me.Two wrongs do not even out hurt or the damage caused by another. I have nothing now, have been shown who they are and what they are capable of. All involved, are https://complisant.I shouldn't have to wait for something to happen.
Prove https://it.Prove he did these things to me and I'll walk away.be honest with me and I will, leave https://quietly.Be transparent and I will let you live outside this house and you can have your girlfriends and your family, all your lives can merge as one and I get to live in https://peace.Everytime your goons show up, you are told and you flip it on me.no more horses, thunderstruck, whores or https://lies.You lie to me,daily, to my face, you, withhold and deflect instead of share and https://include.I am a dependant, not treated like a wife, spouse or partner, in any definition of the https://word.I am ashamed and https://embarrassed.I will be selling the car, my belongings and my son is not the one, I raised https://anymore.They made him mediate and be the messenger, the referee and criticized https://him.They used him, as a pawn. He is not https://okay.He is why I stayed,why is that wrong, to want a stable home and commitment for a kid? I am in this position because of my https://choices.I gave it all, to this house, to them and to others, to support https://others.I am wrong for not saving it https://all.I let him play me for a fool,I couldn't see https://it.How can someone do this to someone? Im no https://one.I have nothing and ask for nothing.

Someone with hero syndrome shouldn't cry being used, when they create the choas to begin with and are the ones using us.

Im not leaving or waiting for someone to save me.I have found it discouraging and disappointing my Son, again was used. Why adults feel the need to use a young man's life experience as gossip, to trash his mother and leave damage behind.I will heal, but he won't be able to address or recognize his place now.you have filled his head with lies from people who hurt people for fun.And to be wrong, again....for expecting them to want real relationships with communication. I want my son healthy,my family, Brian and Will and able to have a clear conversation with out being set up, dismissed or denied my place.Every time, Im at fault.Not one ever, no apologies ever.no repair.Nothing, everytime.

Im not leaving or waiting for someone to save me.I have found it discouraging and disappointing my Son, again was used. Why adults feel the need to use a young man's life experience as gossip, to trash his mother and leave damage behind.I will heal, but he won't be able to address or recognize his place now.you have filled his head with lies from people who hurt people for fun.And to be wrong, again....for expecting them to want real relationships with communication. I want my son healthy,my family, Brian and Will and able to have a clear conversation with out being set up, dismissed or denied my place.Every time, Im at fault.Not one ever, no apologies ever.no repair.Nothing, everytime.

Hi, my name is skyzalemmett. I'm here because I would love to learn more about what I've been living with for most of my life and/or have been diagnosed with . I have multiple diagnoses, and sometimes they can be hard to navigate. I'm looking for support, education, knowledge, wisdom, and ways to manage my illnesses while still taking time to do what I love.

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I know, Im now known as the town psycho, thanks to her, the Harts,Cindy, Corrin,his gazelle friends, the dispensary staff,coffee place and phone https://guy.All the places I frequent but have never once displayed anything of a loss of self.
Im confused something has been said Im not prevy to and that is concerning. I have a https://son.You can call me names,but treat my son, as a pawn,in your sick https://game.You bring strangers into my personal information and accounts, stalk my house, go through my belongings, watch me through my phone with no regard for anyones wellbeing, but not once have you ever spoken directly to https://me.Three years and now you feel Im upset over nothing? Worried the truth is coming out, what you did,directly to my home, to me,my family. Now he is torn, alone and https://backtracking.He doesn't face consequences, or take accountability because you taught him https://that.He does not apologize or resolve anything.you showed, he is the only one who will take care of his mother, when she says jump, he will, because she pays him with things, promises, strokes his ego and he does no wrong, ever, her poor https://son.She told him, convinced him, his wife was jealous of https://him.What type of mother tells a man a woman, is jelly on a man, what? She has power, money and shameless in heart and no,spirit.I tried to turn to the women in my life and guess what? They all sucked, two faced,unloyal,plastic,fakest group of women, Ive ever met.
Yes, And I stand by it, six freaking years https://later.Not one has proven me wrong https://yet.Mean Girls Club, never my deal.do not speak of me https://again.Get help.

I know, Im now known as the town psycho, thanks to her, the Harts,Cindy, Corrin,his gazelle friends, the dispensary staff,coffee place and phone https://guy.All the places I frequent but have never once displayed anything of a loss of self.
Im confused something has been said Im not prevy to and that is concerning. I have a https://son.You can call me names,but treat my son, as a pawn,in your sick https://game.You bring strangers into my personal information and accounts, stalk my house, go through my belongings, watch me through my phone with no regard for anyones wellbeing, but not once have you ever spoken directly to https://me.Three years and now you feel Im upset over nothing? Worried the truth is coming out, what you did,directly to my home, to me,my family. Now he is torn, alone and https://backtracking.He doesn't face consequences, or take accountability because you taught him https://that.He does not apologize or resolve anything.you showed, he is the only one who will take care of his mother, when she says jump, he will, because she pays him with things, promises, strokes his ego and he does no wrong, ever, her poor https://son.She told him, convinced him, his wife was jealous of https://him.What type of mother tells a man a woman, is jelly on a man, what? She has power, money and shameless in heart and no,spirit.I tried to turn to the women in my life and guess what? They all sucked, two faced,unloyal,plastic,fakest group of women, Ive ever met.
Yes, And I stand by it, six freaking years https://later.Not one has proven me wrong https://yet.Mean Girls Club, never my deal.do not speak of me https://again.Get help.