No different,than seven years ago.#CPTSD
Nothing has improved or been acknowledged.I am grateful for having known better and seeing the patterns early.to bad they are the delusional ones, believing I had no clue.I am not complacent when,,I have been asking, begging for it to STOP, the entire time.Because I'm aware of your games, I'm wrong? No, doesn't work like that. I would forgive them if they were forthcoming but they are not.I will be finding ways to protect myself.I no longer feel safe, secure or appreciated, in any capacity now. I have been showed by all involved, let go or be dragged, I have no right to expect any help, initiating home repairs are a no go, anything I say, is over, now.But at the same time, no final plans, no commitments or future endeavors, are fantasy and fake.I will forever be in a stalemate as long as I stay.That is, the message I have been shown for the last two years.The longer I stay, the biggest the health, financial and emotional cost? That's what I'm being told.Makes no sense and not to or by my rules.I can have a good life living here.I do not need to answer to "his" life anymore.He can do it alone.
He can, have all of it, for himself.
I will be here, I will have my say for myself, if he can't include me....It is that simple.im included or I am not, easy.Including me casually, when it works in his favor.no I'm over that.it is in or out, in or over.
