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I've been trying to work on some big issues in my marriage, but I can't fight to save it when he's not in it. I had to get this out, but I don't want to post it on Facebook, too many people don't see what happens when the doors are closed. He isn't abusive, but he is just distant.

The air that hangs between us is now deadly cold,
Love that once filled the space has been paroled.
Communication has been buried, my tongue can't speak,
Our future together no longer clear, it's outcome bleak.
When did we venture so far from the other, closed hearts,
I'm moving forward with recovery, this is where it starts.
Different paths that we follow, and neither has met needs,
I'm struggling with this black space and where it leads.
Words without change or promises unkept pierce my soul,
I don't know how to get through, food is how I self console.
Am I not loveable at this stage of life, myself I shouldn't trust,
The time is coming when I won't get up, our love will combust.
Maybe I've been too hard to get away from overwhelming pain,
Feel like my heart has gone and left me permanently insane.
How do I fix this scratch that has become a raging infection,
Our love should be pure, souls locked near perfection.
This is something we need to address, don't like strife,
If we can't, I will have to walk away and alone through life.