myvoice

here are days where I can feel me,
I can sense me, taste me.

The me I've been without...
The me I've been covering for...

The me lost within innocence,
The me controlled in confinement.

The me trembling in memories.
The me confused in unrememberance

I can feel me...

Stirring deep within.
Intolerably restless inside,
Rattling the walls of my body.

An itch in my throat...
My voice clawing it's way to auditory heights.

The empty pit In my belly...
Lies I've been fed.

The tickle upon my tongue...
Truth tied to uncertainty.

The ringing in my ears...
Thoughts too loud to hear

The fog in my head...
Choices masked in indecision and fear

I can feel me,
I can feel,

Embers fiercely burning fire back into my soul...
Melodies rhythmically beating song back into my heart.

I can feel me Awakening.
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Penny Original!
{The Emotions I felt after openly discussing my Life long Struggle with my "Dark Friend" for the 1st time.}
Why are they looking? What do they see?
The version I want, or the Dark side of me?
I opened the door, I let them in.
I set myself up again & again.
Now they won't listen, they divert their eyes.
For now they see the real me, I wear no disguise.
Don't look away, don't pretend I'm not here.
Just because you don't live with my daily fear.
I'm gentle & loving, helpful & kind.
I just have a Dark Friend who lives in my mind. #Depression #MentalIllness #myvoice