Yay!
I have agoraphobia so I don't leave my apartment unless it's to go to doctor's appointments, tests, procedures, etc. My home aid brought me grocery shopping today. Usually I order them & have them delivered but she wanted me to try. I have only gone grocery shopping 1 other time in the last 5 years so I was very overwhelmed but I managed to get through the whole store. There were quite a few other people there too. I didn't even know all this new food existed. I couldn't believe it. I am so proud of myself for making it the whole way. I was very overwhelmed at first but once I focused on getting what I needed & talking with my home aid it became a lot less stressful. I don't know how often that's going to happen but now I know I can do it. The holidays are really difficult for me. My family always invites me & I always have to find a way to get out of it because they don't understand why I have such a hard time. I wish it was easier to explain & that I wasn't constantly trying to find valid excuses that make sense to them. I'm sad if I'm not invited but I don't want to go at the same time. It doesn't make sense to me either. 🫤
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The picture is of my sweet boy sound asleep cuddling with me right now 🖤🤍🐾