Feel like a failure. #Pathetic #overwhelmed #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #SuicidalIdeation
I feel like such a pathetic loser. I used to love my job. Found so much joy in doing it and working hard for my family. Now I can barely get myself to punch in every morning. I hate the responsibility. I can't stay focused. I am always anxious and counting down the minutes until I can go crawl back into bed. My family relies on me to supply the insurance and my income is more than needed, but I just find I can't keep up the same pace I could before and I feel so ashamed that my mental state puts this limit on me and I think I should be able to push through, but that only seems to be making it worse... I feel like a failure and that I'm letting everyone down. Does anyone else ever feel like this?