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    Can this week of torture just end already?! | TW anger, swearing, all cap text

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    The kids are staying home again… which means no quiet time for me today. And after a shit 3 days, too! How can this get any worse??

    Why?! JUST FUCKING WHY?! I ALREADY HAD A SHIT 3 DAYS?! CAN THIS WEEK PLEASE GET ANY BETTER?! AND THE WEEKEND’S JUST USUALLY SHIT, TOO BECAUSE OF NO QUIET TIME! Just fucking great.

    #sad #deadinside #Anxiety #Autism #Justpleasegivemeagooddayalready

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    Barely Holding On 😢😢😩😩

    Can you medicate me?

    Can you feel my pulse?

    I am too far to find me

    I am too numb to feel these broken bones

    Staring from the outside

    All your ignorance

    Makes it hard to see

    Beneath my skin I fight a war within

    I fight a war within

    If these scars could speak

    You would hear my hell

    And all the lies I use to save myself

    If these scars could speak

    You would know my pain

    And all the demons hiding in my rage

    If these scars could speak

    All the stigma feeding

    It sucks the life from me

    Now I'm suffocating

    All your expectations drowning me

    Walls are closing in now

    How will I survive?

    Is it really over?

    Tell me, will I make it through the night?

    Will I make it through the night?

    Can you hear them

    Will you listen?

    Can you hear them

    Inside of my head...?

    I fight a war within

    Will I make it through the night?
    #Depression #FeelngAlone #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #donefighting #sickandtired #PTSD #Anxiety #Nofightleft #deadinside #DontFeelAlive #TheseThoughtsWontLetMeSleep #WillThisPainEverEnd

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    Is it depression or apathy? #Depression #deadinside #Whocares

    I feel as though I’ve been depressed for a couple of weeks now because of all the issues that are going on in my life and I had to just turn off my give a shit button because it would’ve been too much.
    So I’m off from work today, and I had all these intentions of getting things caught up.
    Yet here I sit, almost 1 PM, and haven’t done anything but sit on my phone and drink coffee.
    And you know what? I don’t care.
    I’ve giving myself permission to blow this whole day off if I feel like it.
    Does anyone else ever get like this?

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    Depressive Episode #Depression #deadinside

    I have been having a depressive episode for over a month. I grew up this way, but now that I had actually known what is was to feel joy, to actually be excited about something without anxiety, I miss it. I feel dead inside. Things I know I’ve enjoyed do nothing now. I keep doing them so maybe it will lift me a little. My body is heavy and hard to move. I’m at work but I want to crawl back in bed and never leave. Just wanted to share. If you feel like I do, you are not alone!

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    Two-Faced

    I'm so tired of hiding my pain it's eating me up inside. I wish I could talk about it but I can't and I don't know why. Its hard trying to find things to keep me going. I dont know how much longer I can take this. #Pain #tired #help #lost #deadinside

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    i want to die

    i just want to be dead. im sick and tired of everything. i'm done fighting. no one can understand what i've been going through. everyone pity me and my family thinks im crazy; im fucking sick of that. i just wanna rest forever. #Depression #Anxiety #unsaidthoughts #deadinside

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    Walking Dead

    I think I have hit my limit. I’m exhausted in all fronts, I feel utterly and completely empty. I feel pretty broken inside. There feels like there’s no safe space, not even a place to hide. I wouldn’t mind if the ground swallowed me up at this moment. I’m just about at the point where I think that if I tell myself long enough to just give up on the hopes that I have, that maybe being numb to it all would make it all easier to deal with. Even though I shouldn’t, I just want to push everyone out so that I could just “be” for once. Every traumatic experience up to this point has came to the head of it all and I’m losing faith in people. I’m just really, really tired. #MentalHealth #Emptiness #Traumatized #Tiredofbeingtired #FeelingEmpty #feelingaloneandlost #Hoplessness #losinghopelosingstrength #deadinside

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    #deadinside #Abuse #ChildAbuse #timetoletgo

    I was abused by both my grandfather (now dead) and a cousin and it’s completely fucked my life. I don’t think like other people, I’m not normal and even when I try and do something about it, it doesn’t change and I’m still an oddball freak. Medicine doesn’t help, counselling doesn’t help, I’m swimming against the tide and I’m drowning and I want to let go. I don’t know what I did to deserve it, but even if I did nothing to deserve it, that brings me no comfort. Nothing brings me comfort, or joy, or even purpose anymore, and I’m now realising that’s the way it’s always going to be, no matter what I try and do to help myself.

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    I don’t feel angry anymore. I don’t feel sad. I don’t feel true happiness. I just feel empty inside. and I can’t tell my own freaking family that. “Hey sis, sorry I missed the state fair. Feeling emotionally dead inside and don’t want to be around people.” That was terrible, but that’s how I feel every. single. day.
    #MentalHealth #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #EmptyInside #deadinside

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    Emotinally dead inside

    You ever get the overwhelming feeling of dead inside. Nothing makes you happy. You want to be alone, but not alone. Your soul feels gone. There is a hole in your chest. All the past mistakes you’ve made are flashing before your eyes. You want to die, but not at the same tine. You want someone to hold you, but you don’t know how to ask. Being depressed, what I realized, isn’t just being sad anymore, it’s feeling an overwhelming amount of emptiness and dead inside. I feel like a zombie just wanting to lie down to rest. Nothing seems to get better. Nothing seems comfortable. Nothing seems easy. It feels like you’re getting in your own way. You just feel nothing... I just feel nothing and I wouldn’t wish this pain on my worse enemy anymore. People who joke about this are lucky because the actual pain is hell. #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Depression #deadinside #MentalHealth #aloneinlife #Anxiety #EmptyInside