Schizoaffective Disorder

I stand between who I was and who I'm becoming, belonging fully to neither place.
The past no longer knows my face, the future hasn't welcomed me in yet.
I feel incomplete, like a thought left hanging in mid-air.
Others demand certainty, but I'm still figuring out the questions.
This present version of me is fleeting, breakable, uncertain—but still trying.
And maybe that's all I need to be right now, even when it feels like too little.
I put myself back together quietly, piece by piece, telling no one.
No recognition for simply surviving, no audience for the anguish.
Stillness became where I worked, endurance became what I used.
They only saw the resilience, never the wreckage—and that's how I know I truly healed.
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THE SPITE THAT KEEPS ME BREATHING.

I exist with all the enthusiasm of mandatory overtime. Heart pumping, lungs filling, neurons firing—not from gratitude, but because dying would feel like admitting defeat.
So here I am, checking off survival's boxes with the energy of filling out paperwork. Awake? Check. Fed? Fine. Functional? Technically.
The universe insisted I participate, so I show up. Bare minimum. Present but not accounted for.
Call it living if you want. I call it the longest act of defiance I've ever committed. #MentalHealth #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #Disability #Neurodiversity

Growing up, I had little knowledge or understanding of what it meant to take care of my mental health—that is, until I had to make it a priority. Even now, it still surprises me how much effort, support, energy, and confidence it takes to remain resilient. Sometimes I feel incredibly tired and exhausted from keeping up with my treatment and care.

What about you?
What’s something you’ve found surprising?

Feel free to share your thoughts below. 🙂

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Tell me honestly: did reading this make you feel more free or more trapped? Because your answer may be more important than the entire philosophy.

It sounds like a cage—a thought trapped in a skull, a world reduced to electrical impulses. But perhaps it's not a prison, but a strange paradox: there's no "inside" without an "outside," no observer without the observed.

Freedom isn't about breaking free from your mind, because where else could you escape? It's about recognizing that the boundary between you and the world has never been as sharp as you thought. You are simultaneously prisoner and guard, observer and observed—a universe unto itself, peering at itself from a million points at once. #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #Addiction #MentalHealth

Healing isn't linear. Some days you'll feel like you took twelve steps back- and that's okay! Healing isn't always pretty and it isn't always fun. You aren't doing anything wrong. You're a human.
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I am not one who easily surrenders to rage, for patience flows through me like deep, still waters. It takes much to stir the darkness that sleeps within, to awaken the storm I keep carefully bound. But when that patience finally breaks, when the shadows are unleashed... the reckoning is fierce.
My anger does not come without cause. It emerges only when I have endured torment far too long, or when someone dares to wound those I hold sacred. My temper may slumber in silence for ages, but when it rises from the depths, it is devastating—a tempest born from accumulated pain, absolute and unforgiving.
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