I am very confused.. I don’t know I should go to my psychiatrist or not... Though I feel like I really need to.. This is something I realised when I was going through the situation.. It's just very difficult to contract him.. My psychiatrist sometimes feels out of my reach.. That place feels traumatizing for me.. I still got a month of my appointment.. It’s way too long for me as my condition doesn’t seem good to me.. It’s been a week.. I can't sleep properly... My situation starts to get worse at night.. When the clock turns 9, I start to have the bad feelings.. I can't sleep at all even after taking my medications... At midnight, I find my myself crying randomly.. I feel I don’t like anything or what I am doing.. I feel extremely lonely.. I have also faced some sudden suicidal thoughts though it’s not that constant.. The worst part is I am even scared to sleep.. I feel if I sleep,then I won’t wake up.. It’s scary.. Then, I will feel suffocation in my sleep.. It’s horrible.. I am also having nausea.. Nights have been really hard for me.. And, I don’t know.. I feel probably my medications aren’t working.. It’s almost been three months.. First, I thought it's goona be okay.. But,it just keeps getting worse.. #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #CheckInWithMe