tryingtoheal

I have lost so many relatives as well as good friends. I was in a grief group but thanks to COVID-19, it is no longer active. Please send me some serious suggestions. Thanks. #tryingtoheal

I forced myself to leave the house today regardless of how I was feeling this morning. While I was out in the sun, I felt better for a while and then felt sad again. I was inside a store and almost cried. I didn’t get home til almost 2:00 and I feel more exhausted than I did before I left. I probably over exerted myself, but I thought maybe I should try some things that were suggested to me (one of which was getting out of the house). #Depression #sunshine #Sadness #exhaustion #Heaviness #MentalHealth #suggestions #tryingtoheal

Do any of you find yourself getting uhm angry and pushing people away even if they care? I have a very difficult time believing anyone would really care about me because for so long I was told in different words how unloveable I am that I’m. a burden.. So now if I feel myself getting too close it’s almost like I sabotage it because I just can’t get hurt again.. #CPTSD ##Narcissiticabuse #tryingtoheal

It’s been 16 years since I started down this road. I am now 36-years-old. I was abused for as early on as I can remember until I was 20-years-old.

I decided to join this forum since I feel alone in many capacities. Mainly in what I have witnessed and experienced as a child. I did try to charge the main person responsible but I ended up being badgered by the police (this was 15 or 16 years ago) and I have tried to talk about everything that still haunts me to counsellors but my worst experiences were not believed by them.

It’s very devastating to have a hard life that you can’t talk about. It would be nice if my childhood had been somewhat palatable but alas that is not my story.

I still suffer from the weight of a past that the world seems to be unable to accept. The lack of acceptance of my experiences has made me feel terribly lonely, crazy sometimes and hurt by the world at large. Wishing to find a friendly environment where I can share with people at least those feelings.

Thank you for reading! Wishing everyone some healing. #hurt #Depression #confessions #tryingtoheal #feelingisolated

I am a fixer
I fix things
For you
For me
I anticipate things
I get it done before it needs getting done
I make the problem not get as big as it could
I can do this well
But it is killing me
And maybe you
It doesn’t let you get the skills you need to fix things
Then I get mad that no one can fix things but me
But I don’t know how to give you the chance to fix things
In a way that doesn’t work for me
#CheckInWithMe #Anxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #itstimeformetochangeithink #MajorDepressiveDisorder #PTSD #tryingtoheal #selfawareness