Addiction struggles
There’s a lot going on in my life right now- I started self medicating with my drug of choice because I’m coping with some abuse from my childhood that I’ve mentioned before. I can’t talk about it at home. My relatives never admit anything happened even though they see the effects of what I went through. It’s a big family secret and everyone was an accomplice. If it takes a village to raise someone up, it also takes one to bring someone down… I have so many feelings underneath the anxiety and fear… the sadness, pain, grief, terror… I want to use this drug less and get off it completely but it’s been hard. I am triggered all the time I am here. I’ve had to enforce extremely strict boundaries because that’s the situation I’m in. I feel sad writing this because I want to be better, I do, it may just take time….