I usually feel so lonely and empty yet whenever friends or family approaches me I just feel like they wanna talk to the old version of me and I don’t know how to let them in because I’m not the person who they expect me to be and everything is so contradictory lol #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Loneliness #Selfcompassion
Nothing like your childhood memories being discounted by the mother that abandoned you...
Im trying to find someone I can just lay down my honest emotions with, irrational and reasonable. You can do the same with me of course, just have to have a mutual agreement that whatever we say won’t be used as a judge of overall character. #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #BPDDiagnosis #BPDPartners #bpdchat #bpdsymptoms #BPDProblems #Bpdrelationships
Last night I am sitting at dinner with my family and in laws, my husband starts making jokes about how he doesn’t get a hot lunch for work every day because I don’t cook. This is an ongoing joke and has been for a while now. There are days where it doesn’t bother me, however, last night was not one of those nights. The more they continued to joke, the more heated I got until I finally decided to excuse myself and go upstairs. As I was walking up stairs I heard my mother in law yell after me "I don’t know why you get so upset. You shouldn’t let it bother you." Usually I don’t respond but I decided to shout back that it’s hard. But why is it hard? I can remember feeling like this my entire life and everyone telling me that I was always over reacting. Let me say this for the people in the back who are still ignorant to mental illnesses. I AM NEVER OVER REACTING. My mind does not work like yours and I will not apologize for that. I will not apologize for my emotions being "over the top." This is who I have always been and it has taken me 28 long, untreated years to finally realize that I have never over reacted, I have simply reacted the only way my broken mind would let me. Please stop telling your loved ones with mental illnesses that they are reacting in a way that isn’t normal, because to them it’s the only way they know how. #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #Myfeelingsarereal
I was having a moment the other day at work where I was just really frustrated and a co worker made the comment of how she didn’t like my “pity party” and that she liked me better when I was happy which completely triggered me into emotional outburst. I went off and ranted about how I’ll just continue to fake being happy like I always do instead of being honest. Then I dissociated, freaking my co worker out who (I guess, thankfully) has a husband with bipolar so she kinda knew what was happening but later I was embarrassed, upset and felt guilty that it happened. BPD always showing up and showing out. This is why I keep a distance from people , to keep this from happening. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #Bpdisexhausting #BPDProblems
I have been with a bpd woman on and off (of course) for many years. She refuses to seek treatment and is now pregnant. I have 2 daughters from a previous marriage. My bpd girlfriend is currently ghosting me for taking my daughters on a trip while she is pregnant. I am at the end of my rope and trying to figure out what the best case scenario or approach is here.... I love her but cannot sacrifice everything of myself to be with her. She has no connection to my girls and very little ability to connect to my life. Should I try with her? Coparenting? Leave 100% and not be a father to our baby
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