I feel so defeated. I lost my job in the middle of May and have been busy applying for new positions as well as unemployment.
I’ve been using indeed with mixed results and decided to try zip recruiter. I’m 100% not impressed and upset. Although I set my location which the app asked for it’s been sending me jobs from outside my location preferences. I went on an interview before I left on vacation and upon returning was offered the opportunity. I had to turn it down due to not being able to reliably get myself to work due to not having a car. I rely on public transportation. I’ve been beating myself up for not tripping checking the cities these positions are in before applying. I’ve been feeling very low for a while now and feel like I will now never find a position…this is only making me anxious and a real trigger for my depression. I’ve also been stressed due to the loss of my cat which I lost 2 months ago, he was young and it was a fluke that he died but it still hurts. I honestly wish I was brave enough to just go through with my thoughts and take my life because clearly I don’t have a purpose or reason for continuing and I just wanna be reunited with my baby.
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