Just listened an old voice message I sent to my therapist.. I sounded vulnerable but also protective at the same time... i could feel how strong I sounded and just refused to give up... I could hear my frustration, my pain... I was crying and also I was saying how cruel everyone has been with me.. But, I could also feel the determination of mine... Like I didn’t care what it takes and how I will do everything for myself... Suddenly after hearing that, I felt I beat my vulnerability at that time and that’s what I have been doing... People are just too cruel.. Kindness is very much needed... I hate the fact when they say don’t fall into depression after this when they already shattered my heart,hopes... It’s just so cruel.. Now, I don’t cry, I don’t complain... I stopped sharing.. I don’t show my vulnerabilities... Did I become strong... I don’t know... But, I feel better... My therapist always said one thing... Only you can console yourself in the way you need... I can feel that.. It helps... When I was listening, there are some things that didn’t just change... The cruelty, judgements... I was tired before and I am still.. But, I made some improvements... Yeah, I did... At the end, I feel it’s me who deserves all the appreciating for everything... Everything I went through and still facing... It’s indeed a long journey.... #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #CheckInWithMe