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When I was in school even in college, there were boys being rude to me & I was bullied. All the men I liked throughout my life made comments about the way I look and they were very attractive men. I am diagnosed with Schizophrenia Bipolar. I stay home and don’t do much because I have had so many people be rude to me especially men. When I was younger my cousin put on pornography in front of me and yes I do watch porn. I used to pose as other girls online and men would be so nice to me and when I showed them a real picture of me; I get shrugged off or even blocked. I was in and out of mental hospitals, self harmed, suicidal thoughts, several different diagnoses. I do consider myself different and a child of special needs. I almost got attacked in school by men too for no reason like they wanted to beat me up. I am close to 30, a virgin and never had a good looking attractive man ask me out or give me the time of the day. It makes me feel bad about myself like I am not pretty or good enough because I have been called ugly so many times and no men that I ever liked pay interest in me. My nationality is Guyanese (West Indian). It sucks that I was made this way but hey I guess they say looks aren’t everything.

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That is me in the picture :/

I was a good boy today. I didn't bite anyone. I didn't overthrow any political regimes. I didn't cover Pauley with glitter and sell her on Etsy. So I decided I deserved a peanut butter and caramel Reese's cup. It made my soul happy.
But right before I ate it I got sick. I feel really dizzy and nauseous. I'm exhausted and feeling really yucky.
I made one 3-cup pot of coffee today but I didn't have any creamer or milk. I added sucralose and chocolate syrup but it was still very bitter. I got almond milk from the grocery order today and I think some creamer. But I remember my back really hurting and I asked Pauley to put some milk in my coffee and she said no. I dunno.
My tummy just made a horrible sound. I suspect I'm gonna get sick again. I'm so tired of being sick. I just want one day of peace and calm. Ok maybe a few days.
My tummy feels like it's full of gremlins. And those gremlins are playing cards and when one loses they flip the table.
I feel really ugly. I looked in my bathroom mirror and was so angry about my appearance. I was in the 120s before I started taking testosterone. Now I'm in the 230s. I'm really upset. I used to be thin and cute and now I'm just a mess.
I feel unlovable even though I know Pauley loves me. I feel fat and just... I'm a pile of hot trash.
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