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Dear Samantha,

You deserve the very best and to get all that you want. All your dreams and desires will come true. I wish that you get everything you want and live a life beyond your wildest dreams.

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Feeling a bit lonely today guys, can anyone advise? ❤

Probably like a few of you on here lots of my 'friends' abandoned me 2 1/2 years ago when I got sick.

I tried to stay positive as I had 3 separate girls who I thought were 'keepers' I've been hearing less and less replies from them over the past 6 months.

Yesterday I messaged all 3, and none have replied. I feel even more lonely then before I messaged them.

There's nothing worse than feeling alone, when having friends is something you want.

I don't even know where to find anybody new. I find myself talking too much to anyone now doctors, nurses etc. Just because I don't have anybody else. It hurts.

What is worse is that it's my 'best friends' and my 10 year anniversary since we met this month, we were literally so close this is something we would have celebrated. she doesn't seem interested. She was like my family but seems to have moved on with new friends, as she's moved to another nearby town.

When she does message me im always hearing about a 'friend' when I ask what she's been up to.

Messages used to be often but now it's always 'sorry I didn't realise I didn't reply' or 'sorry I didn't send a reply i typed' or 'I completely forgot to reply' daily now. Where she's obviously messaging others and forgets about me.

I just feel at such a loss. I'm lucky to have an amazing husband but it's not the same as girl time.

Can anybody else relate? Sorry for rant. Happy Sunday everybody lots of love xx

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I recently posted that i was changing my antidepressant medication (thank you to everyone who commented or hearted that post - you really helped me through some rough days). The good news is the withdrawal issues from the old drug seem to have subsided. Yay! I have been taking it slowly but have been getting out of the house most days and was able to go out to dinner with friends a few nights ago.

The less good news is that I’m now getting some side effects from the new drug. I’m saying “less good” rather than “bad news” because there’s a strong possibility these side effects will also subside in a few weeks. The major side effect is muscle and joint pain. A few days ago I was feeling achy and it occured to me to check the info sheet i got with the new prescription — sure enough, muscle and joint pain is a fairly common side effect with this drug (at least when people first start it). It comes and goes during the day but is really persistent at night, mostly in my legs. The pain itself is on the lower end of the spectrum but is still disrupting my sleep (harder to fall asleep, harder to stay asleep). Ice packs seem to help a bit. I also stocked up on some epsom salts (just did a soak), an analgesic cream, and some painkillers. Hopefully, it’ll be a bit easier to sleep tonight. I am a bit surprised with this side effect because usually I deal with nausea/dizzyness when starting a new med. So even though I’m achy, I am trying to remind myself that it’s great not feeling constantly nauseated.

Today, I also did a long and slow yoga practice for the first time since switching the meds. I hope this will also help my muscles a bit. I did some foam rolling afterwards too. I happen to have a massage appointment tomorrow as well. I booked it a few weeks before i switched, which proved to be fortuitous.

It is of course still too early to tell if the side effects will subside or if this new antidepressant will help alleviate any of my depression symptoms. All this takes time. I am better than i was last week though and that is something.

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I know this is weird but i don’t have a place to put these thoughts. I hope it’s okay I use this space for this. Also, I know this is repetitive. I’m just having a really hard time processing my thoughts and communicating them

I feel really paranoid or maybe it’s truly a survival response, but I am terrified. I am about to go stay with people I have only met twice because I am homeless and I do not have a support system. It’s been gone for years and I have struggled to maintain anything of value or joy with others.
I am so so so terrified because this is obviously very unsafe (although my friends are encouraging me to “be optimistic” because “this will be great!” and “***** sounds like the name of a person who will be nice”)
Yes. I am putting my life in the hands of a person you think sounds like the name of a person who will be nice. No concerns there! A win for data based decision making!
I have no other options.
I am terrified my story is about to end like so many other homeless women who have been experienced significant trauma at the hands of those who they loved the most. Family, friends, support agencies, colleagues. I know this sounds so absurd, dramatic, and over the top.
I am leaving a city I moved to and stayed with friends of someone who I used to date four years ago but we stopped talking and only recently reconnected- so what I am saying is I have only known him for a few months. I am putting my life in the hands of his friends- near strangers.
I never again want to beg for help to save my life at community agencies that I am a client with, my friends, and national agencies. (I called 211 in the US- United Way, which is the resource to connect people with resources- they literally told me “I have nothing left in my database” when I asked for help to just not be on the streets.
There is so much more that I feel I need to say but I’m going to stop there for now.
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