Demon

I think the hardest part about #Anxiety , #Depression , #PanicDisorder, any mental health issue really... Is that the world don't stop.

The world doesn't care that you're having a hard time. The world doesn't care that you have a giant ball of misunderstood #Rage burning in your soul, that you can't always "get over", or "let go" or "grow out of".

The world doesn't care that you are #exhausted from being up all night biting the skin off your fingers where nails used to be, up crying into your pillow all night because you can't seem to be the person you want to be or even be "#normal " for one day. The world don't care if you've slept or not.

The world doesn't care that your body feels like it's shutting down because your never ending anxiety has all your muscles so tense all the time that you just feel like a #Demon is literally sitting on your shoulders, that you can physically feel the weight of your demons dragging you down.

The world doesn't care if you are having a panic attack right before you go into work, and that you feel like you're about to die, ("oh but for real this time, this time it's different I really think I'm going to #Die ).

The world doesn't care that your arms and legs are going #numb and your vision is #blurry and you're starting to see in #tunnelvision , the world won't stop. The world doesn't care that your anxiety is so bad that you just feel like everything is going around you and you are on #Autopilot from having to do things you don't want to do so much day in and day out day, and you question, is this even real?

The world don't care that you can't focus on anything because you have a million things running through your mind. "Quit living in the past" the world will say. "You are being over dramatic" the world will say. "It's all in your head!" The world will say.

No shit.

But oh, they must have never been #Cursed by a past that molded your future, in this #Reality , in this world, that will not stop.

I know that feeling all too well. Where you just wish the whole world would stop, just for one minute so you can gather your thoughts, #Breathe , and remind yourself that it's okay.

I know how it feels, I #struggle every day, and I know that this feeling will probably never completely go away, and I know that the world will never stop, but I have high hopes that one day I can atleast keep up.

We're all fighting demons... each one different and unique... they have the power to control you... 'till your slowly sinking... they bind you up... until the real you is lost... and the only way to excape... is through the Old Rugged Cross...
Were all fighting our demons... each one's life changing... they tear you down... until your finally breaking... they put chains around you... and they try and drown you... the only way to stay above the wave... is by God's Amazing Grace...
Yes, we're all fighting our own demons... we all long to be set free... the best part about facing your demons... is that you can know what it's like to have a new identity... you see... the only way to escape your demons hold... is by a strength man does not have... this strength is only given to us... when we take our Creator's hand... forsake our own plans... because He has the power to break our chains... and when he does... He calls us by a new name... #Poetry #fighting #Recovery #fighter #poems #Christian #Demon #MightyPoets

Feeling hopelessly exhausted, drowning in the voices that echo through my mind
The racing intangible questions, only ever answered by the demon I hide inside

The endless fight of appearing normal yet yearning to be saved
Walking on a tightrope, no safety net, no harness only an audience anticipating your fall
Feeling brave and broken all at once, knowing the severe reactions of showing you have caved

Finding a balance from the chaos imploding in my mind,
Always knowing there’s never an in between,
Colour blind to life, only ever seeing in black and white

Giving too much or nothing at all,
Distance or suffocation is all I’ve ever known

They live their lives, oblivious to it all,
Thinking a racing heart that drops to your stomach is the only fall
To explain one word can destroy your soul
Or one act of ignorance can shatter your goals

Living life inside a cell, with rules that cannot be broken,
I may aswell live life in hell
A foot out of place, the demon will call
Fear, anger, sorrow and pain he will provide them all

See I am not lonely, how could I ever be
Forever together, this demon and me