poems

Isolation is a clown’s smile

Painted red

Isolation is a lover

Because its kisses are sweet

Isolation is a tiger’s claw

Extended weapon

Isolation is a cloak

Like nights lure

Isolation is fear

Will you even know?

Isolation is a capturer

Stockholm’s friend

Isolation is mental illness

Because it’s all in your “head”

Isolation is a deadly prison

Like Bethlem screams

Isolation is voices

No one else can hear

Isolation is

Suicide

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Swing

Flying through the wind

Curling your legs underneath you

Swing

Head tilted back

Laughing because it’s uphill

Swing

Scraping feet against gravel

Trying to slow the up and down

Swing

Feet hitting the ground

But you can’t even rise from the

Swing

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Depression and mania

Swings in the middle of the night

It’s creative outbursts

Suicide whispers

The dancing in the living room

Naps throughout the day

But when night hits

Once again

The grinning demon

Swings

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You’re four

I can still hear you cry

You almost never laugh

Sometimes you’re angry

Otherwise, desperate

Affection is lost now

Isolation is welcomed

You’re four

Eyes are blue

Hair matted to head

When you smile

It’s snatched away

Like a starving child

Reaching for that bread

You’re four

Never growing

Always stuck

I don’t know

How to heal someone

Who wants everything

And nothing

But you’re still

Four

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Don’t tell me how to think, dear,
should ever feel the same
Just because you’re blind to it
isn’t immunity to pain…
Life’s a loop of memories,
existences in different times
all of these accumulate
and all become your mind
So don’t tell me how to feel now
while living in one long play….
It never ends, where’s the end?
Don’t tell me how to feel, dear
til you see all sunlight fade away…
hopelessness evades you now;
I pray it stays the same
If I tell you how to think, dear
just know, it’s ‘cause that’s where I’ve been
all that we can do now, it seems….
is to drag these chains until the end

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How do you let someone kiss you
When their lips are a nightmare reseen?

How do you let another hold you
When their touch makes you want to just scream?

How do you lay down next to someone
When you feel as rigid as a board?

How do you let another inside
When your heart's padlocked right to the core?

How do you open up to someone
When you can't put to words what you feel?

How do you give another your life
When your life doesn't even seem real?

How do you ground yourself to someone
When your need is to break free and fly?

How do you learn to trust another
When your walls are built up to the sky?

How can you share this time here on earth
When you have not a thing left to give?

How do you turn such pain into gain
When you're too scared to let go and live?

How do you ease the panic inside
When fear is a grip that won't end?

How do you quell the heartache and pain
When you're unsure which wound you should tend?

How do you give your soul up to love
When you still haven't found the right key?

How do you attach yourself to a world
When invisible's how you feel seen?

How do you heal those scars of the past
When bandaids are in short supply?

How do you learn you're more than enough
When tears flow nonstop through your eyes?

How do you fix this pattern of hurt?
Well this I so wish that I knew;
Cause I haven't a clue to the answers we seek
To each question that starts, "How do you…?"

By: Debra Brent
09/07/2021

#howdoyou #Anxiety #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EUPD #selfcare #selfawareness #Selfdiscovery #hurting #Healing #Poetry #sad #questions #MentalHealth #OCD #Suicide #poems #Pain

How do you let someone kiss you
When their lips are a nightmare reseen?

How do you let another hold you
When their touch makes you want to just scream?

How do you lay down next to someone
When you feel as rigid as a board?

How do you let another inside
When your heart's padlocked right to the core?

How do you open up to someone
When you can't put to words what you feel?

How do you give another your life
When your life doesn't even seem real?

How do you ground yourself to someone
When your need is to break free and fly?

How do you learn to trust another
When your walls are built up to the sky?

How can you share this time here on earth
When you have not a thing left to give?

How do you turn such pain into gain
When you're too scared to let go and live?

How do you ease the panic inside
When fear is a grip that won't end?

How do you quell the heartache and pain
When you're unsure which wound you should tend?

How do you give your soul up to love
When you still haven't found the right key?

How do you attach yourself to a world
When invisible's how you feel seen?

How do you heal those scars of the past
When bandaids are in short supply?

How do you learn you're more than enough
When tears flow nonstop through your eyes?

How do you fix this pattern of hurt
Well this I so wish that I knew

Cause I haven't a clue to the answers we seek
To each question that starts, "How do you…?"

By: Debra Brent
09/07/2021

#howdoyou #Anxiety #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EUPD #selfcare #selfawareness #Selfdiscovery #hurting #Healing #Poetry #sad #questions #MentalHealth #OCD #Suicide #poems #Pain

I know many people who have joined AA
Yet I never stepped foot in that door;
I struggle with other addictions besides
Still I leave myself open for more.

I love how others say my story inspires
Yet I feel like a fake and a fraud;
As I look in the mirror, whom there do I see?
That little girl still hurt and lost.

I wake up each day with the best of intent
Yet fear and doubt usually win;
I force myself to take a shower and dress
But that's where it seems to all end.

My thoughts run away and take me with them
To places I wish were unknown;
Emotions evoked send me spiraling once more
The feelings of which leave me numb.

Depression within is a constant battle
It's heaviness weighs on my chest;
I struggle to breathe or just utter a word
Til the fight leaves me wanting to rest.

Still I pick myself up from one day to the next
Vow somehow I will make it right;
Then self sabotage or draw into my shell
Avoid connection day and night.

I've come to accept that I'll never outrun
Those demons which lead me astray;
At least not until I can handle the truth
I'm the obstacle in my own way.
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Until then I'll struggle, mind set on unrest
My heart left in want of the key;
For the power to heal lies in but a gesture
Let go and God will set you free.

By: Debra Brent
08/21/2021

#Addiction #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #SuicideAwareness #EUPD #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Poetry #poems #purposeinthepain #hurting #thestruggle #Recovery #Healing #Faith #Godislove #letgoandletgod #MentalHealth