dermotillomania

I excessively pick my skin but especially my scalp. I have very sore areas all over my head with raised bumps and open sores as well as older scabs and it hurts and throbs but I still go back to picking. It’s definitely not as bad when I have acrylic extensions on but I hate feeling like I have to get them done for this reason when sometimes I don’t want to. It’s been a week without them on and my scalp is in a state!!! If anyone has any tips or advice….. when my scalp is too sore to pick I then go to my skin any bumps or imperfections I find. Washing my head burns. I’ve done it since a child and I don’t know how to stop it. I try fidgeting with other things but it doesn’t do it. I even do it in my sleep and when driving. Again, any help would be appreciated! Sorry for the long medical post #OCD #dermotillomania #skinpicking #medical #MentalHealth

*alarm sounds at 5:44am*
The alarm, my eyes, my legs, my hands, everything that’s surrounds me knows I was just able to get back to sleep 2 hours ago.

Brain begins to come to that it’s time to wake up but wake up for what? “I’m safe, comfortable, unseen, and cared for right under these covers “ is my thought as brain zaps arrive for their morning zap sessions. I feel unlovable, anxious, flat, confused, depressed. “Do I have to get up?” “I’m not Superman, they can find someone to come in and sub for today”. Always adding a few more situational situations, waiting until my feet hit the floor.....

I’m anxious for the day but I’m anxious everyday. Thoughts of about the coming day flood my brain at every piercing angle, “will I effectively get the message across that I am teaching” did I do it correctly”, “why am I unloveable” “why are those teachers whispering?” “stop staring at me!”,

I feel it, I feel it all the judgements, the whispers, it begins to manifest in the gut, a pain so heavy it can bring you to death. I need to find peace amongst my self or it could be me resting in peace

*i stand up, make my bed and see where the day takes me*

#MightyPoets
#Anxiety
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#dermotillomania

I have #Bipolar2 and severe #Anxiety. I can’t sleep lately and I am having major skin picking issues. I’m just so tired of feeling this way all the time. My depression has improved but I feel like I’m taking steps backwards due to the skin picking. I haven’t been formally diagnosed with #dermotillomania but after much research it’s definitely something I’m struggling with. Any tips for relief? Insomnia is literally dragging me down. I’m exhausted all the time. I just feel like crying because I’m so tired.

I've picked many times, but didn't realize it was an actual issue. Ive just learned how bad it actually is.... Sometimes it's more extreme than others. I've always been told "don't pick at your pretty face" for as long as I can remember. I've been doing it more lately, and I think it's because I'm stressing about seeing the psychiatrist Tuesday. I dunno, maybe it's just a habit.