Dyslexia

Hello. My name is Ed. This is my first post. I’m not sure this is the type of thing to post.

Just for context. I have BPD/Complex PTSD/Depression/Anxiety and I show patterns of bipolar. I also have dyslexia which become worse when I’m struggling the most. I take Pregablin Lamortrigine and Mirtazipine.

I am really really struggling with my gf. Our relationship can be very very volatile at times, and she always lies by saying I said something or did something when I know I didn’t. I stick up for myself and then it’s like throwing petrol on a bonfire, and the rage goes up inside me and my brain feels like it’s on fire.. it’s unbarable. My reaction to such is often to shout and become defensive, but also to become withdrawn.. but it’s like being exshausting.

I need help with dealing with triggers like this, but I just can’t find it.

I often find it really difficult expressing my feelings to her, whether that is if something’s good or bad. I don’t tell her I love her that often, but it’s not because I don’t (I don’t think haha) I just find it so hard overcoming all the fuzz in my head day to day to be forward thinking enough to be all like “you’re amazing and I love you because of this this and this” and it’s like, when she’s upset me I destroy that thought of love etc and hide it away some way, and that looks like I’m being cold or whatever.

It feels like she sometimes treats me like I’m broken and need fixing and is always saying in arguments “you need to go back to the doctors” or “your pupils have come massive” meaning I have crazy bipolar eyes.

I just want to hide away, or drink myself silly to cope…

Sorry I’m just ranting, I don’t know how to cope..

Hi, my name is thehopefulautistic. I'm here to continue learning about my reality of being a late-diagnosed level one autistic individual with severe ADHD, dyslexia, and sensory processing disorder. We all have challenges in our lives, and I find it rewarding to learn how I can help others overcome their daily obstacles. Most importantly, I am driven by the desire to improve my interactions and understand my limitations, acknowledging that I don't know everything.#MightyTogether #ADHD #AutismSpectrumDisorder #Dyslexia #PTSD

I am struggling with chronic pain. I am still trying to work. Yesterday I was so out of breath I had to go in my office and put my head down to catch my breath. Today I tried a nebulizer treatment but it won't last until I need it. I am getting weaker and more in pain every day 😢 gastroparesis, asthma, chronic pain in left lung, PTSD, BPD, GERD, dyslexia, hearing loss, depression, microvascular angina, pretty much everything wrong with me 😩

#ADHD Diagnosed as a Child at age 6. I was exhibiting angry outburst, and intense frustrations, and my thought processes were very erratic. I was placed on Ritalin. It does help slow the swirling Kaleidoscope of random and broken thoughts and ideas. I was diagnosed with it again, recently as an Adult... #CPTSD My Sister and I are survivors of Physical, Emotional and Sexual Abuse all of which occurred before age 5... continued until I was 11 and figured out that I did not have to allow myself to be in one on one situations with the "Uncle" that had been raping me... At 13, I was allowed to move in with my Aunt Cathy, who was my best friend, growing up... and got me away from my Step-Father who beat my Sister and I regularly, as well as the verbal abuse and telling us that we were useless and good for nothing... We had these thoughts beaten into us, and sadly grew up to be adults with low to no self-esteem... #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder I still do not completely understand this one, and it is a recent diagnosis, but when reading about the behavior patterns, it begins to make sense... I know I am not deserving of the Love and Compassion I am seeking and self-sabotage my relationships, even though I fear being alone... Yes, I know... I am a walking contradiction... #suicidal I am actually a two time Survivor. I did not make half assed attempts. My first time was an Overdose and someone found me choking on my own vomit, and took me to the Hospital I think I was 17. Second time, in my late 20s, I stepped in front of a car, and was thrown over the hood like a ragdoll and ended up with a bad limp for years, that still is visible. While I no longer have any plans to hurt myself. I still have the feelings of being a horrible burden on others and believe they would be better off without me in the picture... So the Thought Process is still inside me... I just CHOOSE to NOT act on the Feelings...

OK I shared all of that, to say this... Decades of Talk Therapy and Medications have done NOTHING to improve my Quality of Life. I still have a deeply negative self-image, low to no self-worth. When provoked, or just feeling intimidated, I go into #oppositionaldefiance and very #narcissistic behavior patterns...

I have learning disorders like #Dyslexia , but I have learned to use Audiobooks and Podcasts to try and teach myself modes of Psychology, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, but I have not had a Psychologist or Therapist to GUIDE me through ways to Utilize these things effectively...

My Family makes comments like "You are an ADULT and should KNOW better!" "You are a Grown Man, you need to start ACTING like one!" "You cannot keep blaming your Parents, for your Bad Behavior. You are an ADULT and Responsible for yourself!" FOR THE RECORD, these are very hurtful and demeaning comments that only make me feel WORSE about myself after experiencing a Meltdown...

CAN I FIND PEACE & RECOVERY from these Behavior Patterns??? Talking and Medication doesn't seem to be helping... I am now looking into Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. Ketamine Inhalant Treatments have also been suggested... I am reticent to try these. But, at this point, I am starting to want to give in... Only because NOTHING else has seemed to help... and I am tired of being the way I am... My knee-jerk reactions to Negative Stimulation, (or what I perceive as attacking), I shut down and become angry and aggressive and retaliatory... I am doing everything I know how to do and I am STILL battling the same stuff I have been dealing with since I was 4... Now I am 59 and still feel Hopeless and Helpless...

Hi, my name is Chance.
I enjoy reading articles from THE MIGHTY so i figured I might see what else is here.
#MightyTogether #AutismSpectrumDisorder #Narcolepsy #dissociativeamnesia #Dyslexia

Hi, my name is Adalinda,
I am interested in exploring thoughts that I struggle to get out of my head. In a safe enviroment, around people who may have had a similar problem to face and found a way to cope and get through. Thank you.
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Dyslexia

YA books are great, but people need representation at every stage in life. Not only every stage of life, but in all walks of life. Neurodivergence is a topic that is often overlooked in children’s literature. So here is a list of 5 books tackling neurodivergence:

1. “Focused” by Alyson Gerber
Clea can't control her thoughts. She knows she has to do her homework . . . but she gets distracted. She knows she can't just say whatever thought comes into her head . . . but sometimes she can't help herself. She know she needs to focus . . . but how can she do that when the people around her are always chewing gum loudly or making other annoying noises? It's starting to be a problem—not just in school, but when Clea's playing chess or just hanging out with her best friend. Other kids are starting to notice. When Clea fails one too many tests, her parents take her to be tested, and she finds out that she has ADHD, which means her attention is all over the place instead of where it needs to be. Clea knows life can't continue the way it's been going. She's just not sure how you can fix a problem that's all in your head. But that's what she's going to have to do, to find a way to focus.

2. “Fish in a Tree” by Lynda Mullaly Hunt
Everybody is smart in different ways. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its life believing it is stupid.” Ally has been smart enough to fool a lot of smart people. Every time she lands in a new school, she is able to hide her inability to read by creating clever yet disruptive distractions. She is afraid to ask for help; after all, how can you cure dumb? However, her newest teacher Mr. Daniels sees the bright, creative kid underneath the trouble maker. With his help, Ally learns not to be so hard on herself and that dyslexia is nothing to be ashamed of. As her confidence grows, Ally feels free to be herself and the world starts opening up with possibilities. She discovers that there’s a lot more to her—and to everyone—than a label, and that great minds don’t always think alike.

3. “Muffled” by Jennifer Geranni

Amelia does not like noise. In fifth grade, she has to learn to play an instrument or, as she sees it, make noise on purpose. To help Amelia cope, her father gives her a pair of earmuffs to wear. When she makes a new friend in trombone class, the two form an unlikely friendship that helps Amelia find a way to let in the noisy world she’s muffled for so long.

4. “Tune It Out” by Jamie Sumner

Lou Montgomery has the voice of an angel, or so her mother tells her and anyone else who will listen. But Lou can only hear the fear in her own voice. She’s never liked crowds or loud noises or even high fives; in fact, she’s terrified of them, which makes her pretty sure there’s something wrong with her. When Lou crashes their pickup on a dark and snowy road, child services separate the mother-daughter duo. Now she has to start all over again at a fancy private school far away from anything she’s ever known. With help from an outgoing new friend, her aunt and uncle, and the school counselor, she begins to see things differently. A sensory processing disorder isn’t something to be ashamed of, and music might just be the thing that saves Lou—and maybe her mom, too.

5. “Fifty-four Things Wrong With Gwendolyn Rogers” by Caela Carter

No one can figure out what Gwendolyn Rogers's problem is—not her mom, or her teachers, or any of the many therapists she's seen. But Gwendolyn knows she doesn't have just one thing wrong with her: she has fifty-four. At least, according to a confidential school report (that she read because she is #16. Sneaky, not to mention #13. Impulsive). So Gwendolyn needs a plan, because if she doesn't get these fifty-four things under control, she's not going to be able to go to horse camp this summer with her half-brother, Tyler. But Tyler can't help her because there's only one thing "wrong" with him: ADHD. And her best friend Hettie can't help her because there's nothing wrong with Hettie. She's perfect. So Gwendolyn is hopeless until she remembers the one thing that helped her mother when her own life was out of control. Or actually, the twelve things. Can these Twelve Steps that cured her mother somehow cure Gwendolyn too?

📚 Happy reading! Remember, everyone is valid 💖

#themightyreaders #Neurodiversity #AuditoryProcessingDisorder #SensoryProcessingDisorder #ADHD #Dyslexia #Undiagnosed