Learning Disabilities

I just went to my first academic conference. It was one of the most amazing things I've ever done, and gave me confidence that I really belong in my field. But I still felt like there were times when I struggled to fit in, and wondered if others thought that I was awkward or strange. Looking back, I hope I didn't misrepresent myself to others who might someday hire me, or read something I've written.

I am neurodivergent. I often question whether I can own that label, since I'm not officially Autistic or ADHD, but my cerebral palsy, associated vision challenges and learning disability create struggles within certain social contexts. I don't always know where to stand, what to say, where to look or how to end a conversation. It's one of the many things I've tried to hide whenever I can...I live in an exhausting place of accepting and often being proud of my physical disability, but struggling with its cognitive effects.

I confided in a trusted family member about my thoughts, and their response unsettled me. They replied, "yeah, I always worry about how you come across too." They elaborated that "sometimes you seem so neurodiverse, and other times you seem so capable" and encouraged me to ask trusted friends and mentors for feedback and advice on how to interact with others in these academic situations. Part of me knows that I need to improve these skills to be accepted in my field, but another part of me really craved to hear that I am enough as I am. Of course, I've been told that many times, too...I'm blessed to have many wonderful, validating people in my life. But I'm still left questioning how much of my true self is really welcome.

#CerebralPalsy #Disability #LearningDisabilities #Neurodiversity #Anxiety

I have learning disabilities and mental health diagnosis on top of that and holding down a job is rewarding yet anxiety and stress inducing. I feel paranoid and stressed at work even though people dont interact with me much. I guess that makes it worse because I dont feel safe or a connection with others there. I try inner affirmations and repeating positive songs and lyrics in my head. What else can I do to create this sense of safety im looking for at work?

Today at work I feel like I had a time of understanding. I met a woman who had #LearningDisabilities it was such a beautiful feeling knowing that she and I both knew each others struggles.