MorbidObesity

Been using noom to help find a better way to lose weight (because diabetes and heart disease.) It's based on cognitive behavioral therapy and designed to help you challenge unhealthy thoughts and habits so you can sustain weight loss by changing your relationship to food, movement, and replacing old habits with positive sustainable habits. However, today's lesson had to do with choosing a friend to be accountable to. It asked me to pause and reflect on things. I don't like to do that because the contents of my head can be scary and dark...lots of spaces like that inside. Due to my own issues, among other things, my life has been very lonely and isolated. I didn't and still don't connect with people because if I can't stand to me around me sometimes (less now than in the past) how can I ask someone, anyone to be my friend. Honestly I don't have any friends. Want to be held and take a nap. Don't have anyone (other than my therapist) to talk to and no one who really knows me. Don't want to whine..which is exactly what this sounds like to me. Sorry.

I have so many medical conditions from #IIH , #Fibromyalgia , #FND , #Obesity , #Anxiety and #Depression . To name what I can at half 2 in the morning.
I have such a high level of pain relief that I’ve been scared to death every time I take them as my GP said if he gave them to anyone else it would kill them. I’m maxed out on all doses of pain relief and I’ve ordered some #CBD oil. Now I know it isn’t magical, but if it helps lower some of the opioid medication.......that has to be a good thing doesn’t it?

So here goes the over working #worry brain as usual 🙄 I took the CBD oil for 2 days then I had a call from the GP that they had to take me off an anti sickness medication. Turns out I should have been on it a maximum of 12 weeks and I’d been in it over 2 years. Long and short of it is am I now stuck with withdrawals off a medication I wasn’t even worried about. I shouldn’t be adding CBD into this mix!

I trust what I’m given off my #GP to take. Is any good a good #Drug ? They keep the pain at bay. They never solve it.
Now for any tablet I’m on (about 16) from the simple to the toxic, at my #MorbidObesity I’m nothing more than a trapped ticking time bomb.