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Who else has attempted this many times? Seems my God will not allow me to do this anymore.#TheMighty #MightyTogether #Pain #tired #exhausted #Escape #relief #Shutdown

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Tired and anxious and feeling down #Anxiety #Depression And I can’t get rid of these darn hiccups

My husband and I have started marriage counseling. Now both of us have our own issues and we each are going to go see our own counselors for specific issues too. We have our marriage therapist appt on Monday and I know she will be disappointed in me. I have spent almost 2 weeks trying to find my new particular type of therapist, which is less common and more specialized, and researched and checked Insurance acceptance for hours AND procrastinated. I called one but haven’t heard back. I’m just feeling sad with myself and overwhelmed with trying to find someone off an internet profile (if I’m lucky). I just can’t decide. I don’t want more computer sessions! I need to be in person where we can hear each other and not have technical issues #Anxiety #Depression #Procrastination #Shutdown



I am supposed to be married in a few weeks yet my fiancé thinks it’s weird when I want him to express his emotions to me? I just don’t understand??? Anyone else have a significant other that shuts down and you have no clue what is going on? It really, really hurts and sucks!!! #FearOfAbandonment #Shutdown


Shutdown of primary care???

Here's something I don't understand: The county in which I live has 6 confirmed Covid-19 cases. That is 0.024% of the population.

Why is it that there is no routine primary care? Do people with chronic illnesses stop being ill because 6 people are?

Medical clinics should be doing things to keep their clinics clean *already* and, with some basic additional protection, patient care should be, essentially safe.

I recently had a situation where I had a strong allergic reaction to something. Not sure what. It manifests itself in the form of hives ALL over for more than a week. This would typically be a primary care visit, but, instead, I had to go to an urgent care facility, attached to a hospital (you know the place where the sick people are?)

I have a rare, and often unheard of, GI disorder. The *only* FDA approved medication for this has potentially dangerous and life-long side effects and is not terribly effective for me. I can get a med that is not FDA approved, within FDA guidelines and part of those guidelines is a periodic EKG to ensure a rare side effect is not endangering my heart. The doctor changed the dosage yet I cannot get this medication until doctor offices are opened up to get the EKG. Why? It's not emergent.

I understand reasonable limits on access to even essential services. There is a purpose and a reason to do so.

Harvard Univ. researchers are suggesting these social distancing measures may continue into 2022.  ( ) Do I just have to stop being ill for a couple of years? I wish I had thought of that before I got ill so that I would have just held off.

Seriously, though, why is basic medical care in a place where a small fraction of a percentage of people is ill being limited but I can go to the grocery where people seem to think social distance only matters when you don't want something on the same shelf as someone else?

I'm not asking to get my hair or nails done, nor demanding that I can go to TGI Fridays. I am wanting basic and routine medical care that seems to have taken a backseat to a pandemic that, at least locally, is not making the local population ill.  

f someone can give me some decent reasons that justify the shutdown of primary and essential care of chronically ill persons that doesn't fall into the category of "emergent care" I would like to hear it, because, as I said, this makes little sense to me.
#COVID19 #Shutdown


Does anyone else shut down when triggered?

I have ptsd and when I'm triggered u have two responses. Panick attack or shut down. I'll not speak or move for 30 minutes to about 2 and a half hours. Close to the halfway point I can say little things. And move a little more... but still not a lot. Does anyone else have this happen to them?
#Shutdown #trigger #PTSD #CPTSD #help #question

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Have you ever shut down or become numb! #Shutdown #tired of fighting the fight#numbness

I’m bipolar 11, I’ve been hospitalized three times in the past 12mths, so needless to say, I’ve shut down and have become numb. I’m so tired of fighting the fight. I’m embarrassed, disappointed and ashamed that I’m crashing (into a depression) once again, in such a short period of time. I was discharged July 15th, from a 2mth stay at the hospital. My good cycles are becoming shorter and shorter... So now I’m not opening up to anyone, just holding it all in, and this is accumulating more pain that I can handle. I don’t want anyone to know I’m not well again, I feel like a fool.

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Losing Time as a Borderline

It is important for me to clarify that I am not dwelling on the past because I am trying so hard to move forward. One thing that I struggle with as a #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder patient, is losing time. What I mean by that is - when I go through episodes after being #triggered whether it be #Splitting, or feeling like I am going to #Shutdown. My episodes can be drawn out into the whole day because I don’t know how to turn off my hurt feelings, my anger, my frustration, etc. It’s like once it’s turned on, I can’t turn it off because I don’t know how to. This mainly happens with my romantic relationships, so that person will go through hell for at least a day. I know that I make people the enemy when I feel hurt. I just wish that I could save myself and also my significant other from all of the damage that ensues...

The last two weeks have been horribly relentless. Fighting all of the time, becoming defensive, blaming each other, yelling, slamming doors, lots of crying, tension, accusations, assumptions, making things about ourselves (or at least that’s what we accuse each other of)’s hard to be in a relationship with someone who has a mental illness just like you do... we’re exhausting each other and honestly I’m afraid it will end us. 😞

(Follow me on IG: ashley_borderlineuncut)

#BPD #MentalHealth #EndTheStigma #320changesdirection #mentalhealthadvocate #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #EmotionalAbuse #ADHD #RelationshipOCD #Relationships #Selflove