Suicidal Thoughts

It's the loneliest feeling in the world-to find yourself standing up when everybody else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say, 'What's the matter with him?' I know. I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away. #Depression #Anxiety #Grief #SuicidalThoughts

Hi, my name is alexis. I've been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, depression, body dysmorphia, shoulder tendinopathy, chronic migraines, and more:)

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #Migraine #ADHD #AutismSpectrumDisorder #EatingDisorder #ChronicDailyHeadache #ChronicPain #SuicidalThoughts

Hi, my name is Catwomance. I'm here because I have struggled with major depressive disorder for several years now. I had ups and downs, and I thought it might be a good idea to connect with others who are dealing with similar issues

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Hi, my name is princesss_Arley.

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With all the loss I’ve endured over the last couple of years, losing my son and wife within 15 months and then watching my mom decline from alzheimers and eventually watching her pass, I don’t feel like I can feel anything anymore. I’m in a fairly new relationship with a woman I’ve known for 25 years. I say I love her but the truth is that I feel nothing. I do know I love her but I’ve seemed to have lost the ability to feel anything. I don’t get mad, sad, angry, none of it. I know I haven’t truly grieved for my mom though it’s been less than a year. I try to act like I have feelings but I just don’t. There’s something wrong with me. Most days I feel despair and want to die, but again there’s no true feelings. Have I lost the ability to feel? It sure seems that way. #SuicidalThoughts #Grief #Depression #Anxiety

Trigger Warning: This poem contains sensitive topics, dark imagery and graphic depictions of suicidal thoughts. Keep in mind, this is just a poem and not to be taken out of context. Unfortunately for others to hear, I do have a rather dark-toned voice when it comes to writing stories in a poetry format. See this as self-expression and a way to transmute pain into art. As I am already seeking professional help.

If anyone is sensitive to this topic, please do not read further than this message. Your mental health is more important than my art.

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My arousal

Is it depart from this

God-forsaken planet

Permanently

Not tempted to look back

At the past mistakes

Filled with unfathomable regrets

How can I or anyone close forget?

The relationships

I have obliterated

And ended prematurely

Perhaps it would be

Sapient to fly off

The nearest cliff

To finally end the prolonged

Suffering once

And for all

Aspire to vanish

In the midst

Of a perfect storm

Or arrive at cosy

Setting that is warm

Who am I fooling?

I cannot live on

Like this

Spiralling into a

internal abyss

Inner peace

Shattered

Dreams and hopes

For the future

Battered

Into a million pieces

Before my eyes

As if my whole life

Have been a

Big fat lie

I often flirt with death

Through living in

A heedless manner

Who gives a toss

about a defective planner?

As I strolled

Through an eerie

Swamp

Appeared to be all in black

Absences of any hue

Colour it would lack

Descending into more

Intrusive thoughts

Then stumbled into

an invisible web

All caught up thus far

Accepting the entanglement

Just as peaceful

As a spa

Ironically….

Futile to break free

From my own shackles

Cannot saved through

my own insanity

Perplexed in the

Stygian and chilling swamp

Contemplating on

My life or future

In profound estrangement

And dread

Stream of tears

Began to shred

“Is this what I truly desire?”

I questioned

“Who am I leaving behind?”

If only I can

Rewrite the past or rewind.

#MentalHealth #Depression #AutismSpectrumDisorder #Loneliness #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #SuicidalThoughts #Anxiety #Selfcare #SocialAnxiety #MightyPoets #Neurodiversity #SuicidePrevention #Poetry

Hi, my name is SnailLover54321. I'm here to talk with people and try to feel less lonely. I have ASD and Depression; I might have PTSD, I suffer from Childhood Trauma, SH, Suicidal Thoughts and Addiction.

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