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It’s been a long time here.. I was actually dealing with so much that even sharing that somehow makes me scared. 2025 was never easy for me.. From the very beginning, I had my exams.. And, my situation was the worst.. There were places once I dreamt of but I had to let go cause unfortunately I wasn’t in that situation to prepare... And,you know what's the worst part when I was attending all that, I knew that I was an eligible candidate but I couldn’t do anything... And, that's the part which still breaks my heart... Started from 2024,it was three marks for which I couldn’t apply for my dream University.. There was one where I couldn’t even attend.. All these happened in February.. It’s been three months but the heart is broken... That was my personal grieving.. When I was going through all that, somehow I lost my interest from life but my mother was there for me.. But,my father, he tried to degrade me every chance he got.. Like that I brought shame for him and all.. Also,pressuring me to take admission in the places I don’t even like.. Well,even in these broken state, one thing I knew that my self-respect is the most vital thing and I don’t wanna live in anyone’s charity.. Not even my family.. The torture was getting out of control.. Mental torture.. That it made me suicidal... But,at the end of the day, the only thing that came to my mind always that the vision of my mother's helpless condition without me.. She is the one who always made me live a beautiful life cause I know It's not only for me, it’s for her too... Then, I got selected for an exam.. It was my theatre practical exam and somehow, I managed to do really well... I am also impressed actually.. To be on the merit list is something my heart was craving for so long.. Though, I don’t have plans to continue with that cause I have my plans.. Still, the confidence to be on the list was something that made me feel that yeah, life can lived so beautifully... It’s not the end.. It’s just the beginning.. And, I am blessed to have this chance and if you ask me my motivation, well it’s my mother.. She is all I got... To be honest, it’s actually an emotional turmoil but I would like to focus on the positivity.. And, I am trying to stop caring about the people who don’t deserve me.. Being emotionally weak towards your family can be considered as weaknesses was something that still surprises me.. Life is indeed a complex journey.. You know what whenever I try to say all these, everyone is like be distant and all that.. But, that's not how it works.. I am still suffering from Major Depressive Disorder and I also know there is a long life ahead... I gotta heal.. I gotta try to overcome this cause I believe there is a beautiful life and though I am scared but I wanna live that life.. Yeah.. So, detachment is just gonna make it worse cause except my family, I actually don’t have any friends trustworthy and I am not comfortable cause no one is goona understand.. I gotta live, gotta heal.. I got my mother.. And, also a very supportive psychiatrist.. I just love how he understands me... I used to have issues with him but slowly and slowly, we got a very amazing understanding something I am grateful for.. He inspires me to go for my dream.. Also, I got an amazing Counselor... I had to change like four to five but now, I got the perfect one... I also made a change with interaction and believe me, it’s working.. Just last night, I was crying and telling all these to my mother.. She is everything.. At one point, when I was saying about my suicidal thoughts, she broke down and said it shatters her heart.. Please don’t say it.. As I said, she is all I got.. I know it became a long story cause I got so much to share.. From my hardships to gratitude, I would choose gratitude to exclaim my condition.. Yeah.. That’s what I am trying to breathe, to live, to heal.... #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #SuicidalThoughts #MajorDepressiveDisorder

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Alienation and Inferiority Complexes

Hi there, I’m a 20 year old University student reaching out as I have struggled with Depression, Anxiety and intense Suicidal thoughts for a number of years now.

I’ve been living with ongoing feelings of loneliness, low self-worth, and a deep sense of disconnection from people around me. University life in particular has only made that worse. I often feel like I don’t fit in with my peers, like my values and the way I experience the world are completely different. I find it hard to relate to the culture of partying, drinking, casual relationships and surface-level connection, and actively reject this way of living. I want more depth, sincerity and stability in my life, but I feel like I’m in the minority for that.

It’s easy to say ‘well I suppose you’ve not found your people yet’ but it seems finding those who live life by the values I uphold so tightly is becoming even rarer, and it isn’t exactly the ‘trend’. Of course I am aware that the reasons why people live a more ‘promiscuous’ lifestyle can be for all manner of reasons that aren’t their fault, but it really strikes deep when I look for safety and can’t seem to find it when I have struggles trusting people as it is.

I hear stories of infidelity, revenge, pain both inside and outside of love, and the more I hear of it; the more sensitive and reluctant I become to take on the world. It’s left me to feel like I don’t belong here and that I simply feel too much of my own and others pain to really live a sustainable life. I’m terrified of the pain a girl could do to me, and I simply don’t feel strong enough to cope.

Lately, things have gotten harder. I’ve found myself unable to do everyday things without being triggered by intense insecurities—sometimes I can’t even walk down the street without being overwhelmed by how I feel about myself. I often spiral into self-critical thoughts about my appearance or how I come across, or even just how I believe I don’t belong anywhere and feel less than - and it’s making life feel unmanageable. I’ve missed lectures, withdrawn from people I care about, and lost a sense of direction.

I also carry a lot of emotional pain around relationships. I care deeply about others, but I’ve been made to feel like that care isn’t wanted or enough. Past experiences have left me feeling dismissed and overlooked, and I’ve internalised a lot of that. I’m stuck in a loop of overthinking, overgiving, and still feeling like I’m not enough.

I’m aware I’ve said a lot but if *anyone* feels similarly please feel free to open up I’d love to talk about these things.

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Help/hope -- really??#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MentalHealth #Depression #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts

I'm so tired of the clichés and platitudes of how it will get better, how there is hope, how reaching out is a viable solution to progress. I have been doing all of this for years, clinging to vague, abstract hope abojt how it will get better, asking for and searching endlessly for the appropriate, effective help. It is not there. When the most specialized treatment for #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder is not covered by (my) insurance when finding competent help is so hard because clinicians choose not to work with Borderline patients, it reinforces all of my deeply rooted pains, flaws, and patterns. The professionals aren't willing to try unless they are paid out of pocket, and I can't afford that, nor can I take the risk it will be effective for me or that I have the fortitude to stick with it.
So sure, there IS help and hope, but its not attainable, not reasonable, and I long ago lost the ability to cling onto empty false hope.

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Living in the gray area of being suicidal, an excellent article but I’ve been living there 45 years now.

So if you’re familiar with this article you understand what I live with. Now, after having a disagreement with my girlfriend I feel even more suicidal, not so much in the gray area. I want it all to be over. #SuicidalThoughts #Depression #Anxiety #Grief

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I need to lose 80 pounds for health benefits. Any weight loss tips and advice on how I can lose all this weight naturally and safely

My doctor says I need to lose it. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently. Please don’t comment saying it’s okay to be overweight or stupid stuff like that because nobody wants to be fat unless if you are stupid. I just hope I lose all this weight and keep it off permanently

#CheckInWithMe #CheerMeOn #MightyTogether #Psychosis #Depression #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Trauma #PanicAttacks #PanicDisorder #PanicAttack #PTSD #Bipolar2 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide #Schizophrenia #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Selfharm #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #SocialAnxiety #Obesity #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PostTraumaticStressDisorder #SchizophreniaSpectrumPsychoticDisorders

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living lessons: life with chronic illness (lesson #3 )

surrendering should never be confused with sinking. when we surrender, we humbly recognize our powerlessness; when we sink, we abandon our agency to do anything about it. to surrender is to give ourselves permission to accept unpleasant circumstances because they are happening whether we like it or not. to sink however, is to ultimately give ourselves passive permission to witness our own self-destruction. what strikes me most in both scenarios is the inherent giving process found in each. in the case of giving in and surrendering, the gift is born of self-compassion and hope. whereas giving up and sinking is a gift born of release when we can no longer entertain an alternative - not because there isn’t one, but rather the water has tragically become too murky to see it. may we all give to ourselves wisely. may we all feel the softening of a surrender and not the sabotage of a sink. and in the end, may we all choose a life that is lovingly livable.

#ChronicIllness #Depression #SuicidalThoughts #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Anxiety #Trauma #Suicide #ChronicFatigue #Grief #MentalHealth #PTSD #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #AutoimmuneThyroidDisease #Disability #IfYouFeelHopeless #Undiagnosed #ChronicPain

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Sowdraxe. I'm here because
I have depression and anxiety I have to constantly fight with suicidal thoughts every single day, I am 30 years old I had been working from I was 13 and I don’t have degree and I am deaf I am tired and done I don’t want to survive or anything I just want relief and some solution because am at my wits end#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression

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