Lately I have been feeling broken. I’m on new anxiety medication which is helping, I’m having more good days, which has been one of the best feelings, compared to were I have been the past few months. While I am having these good days, within the last week I have been feeling broken or unworthy. I personally think it has to do with a guy I have been talking to because I feel that I have been the one reaching out to talk to him. I refused to get a hold of him Monday and today and I have yet to hear from him. I know I should voice my concern regarding this, especially if we continue to see each other but I don’t feel that it’s my place. We’ve only had 2 dates and left on good terms at the end of them. I feel that I am cursed with 2 dates and then the guy ghost me and ignores me until I pick up on the hint that they do not want to talk to me.
I just can’t shake the feeling of thinking that I am broken and that I am only good for a few dates until the guy finds someone better. I’ve tried holding out on meeting guys who sounded great over text because of my superstition and it has still proved me right. I feel unworthy of any guy I start talking to because I don’t think they will like me or that I have to hide who I really am. I shouldn’t be feeling this way and it is making me over think and over analyze every little thing that I do or say to a guy. I wish I didn’t feel like this. #anxiey #overthinking