Body Dysmorphic Disorder

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    I'm Fat and I Don't Hate Myself

    I’m fat. I admit it. I haven’t been fat all my life, so this came as something of a surprise to me, but I’m dealing with it. I don’t know whether it’s my eating habits or my medication or some genetic thing that has caused me to gain weight, but there you have it. It could be any or all of those.

    I’m not trying extreme diets or grueling workouts, though I admit that some exercise would be good for my mental condition as well as my body. I’m living with and acknowledging the fact that I am fat.

    The thing is, when I think about myself, I don’t think of myself as fat. Perhaps I’m in denial about it. But I do know how much I weigh and that it’s over what I should, according to all the height vs. weight and BMI Index charts. And I don’t think of myself as thin. I just feel as though I’m still in my 30s and weigh what I weighed then, despite my body’s very clear rejection of those notions. I know I’m really in my 60s and have trouble getting up off the floor if I fall, in part because of what I weigh.

    I’ve heard that everyone gets stuck in their head at a certain age and always remains that same age in their mind. It’s not quite like having an inner child of four or ten (or in my case, more like 15). I used to think I didn’t have an inner child until I remembered how much I still love chocolate milk, plush animals, and naps. And I do have that inner teen that wants to make up for all the things I missed when I was a depressed teen, like mad crushes and experimenting with fingernail polish and fake nails. But having an inner weight is different somehow. It’s like my brain and my body are clashing in some way.

    At least I don’t have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. That’s when you see tiny, imperceptible flaws in yourself and magnify them until you think that’s all people see when they look at you. Technically, it’s not the same as anorexia because, in anorexia, you focus only on your weight even if you are thin. Anorexia is an eating disorder that you have as a reaction to your flawed perception of your body size. Dysmorphic Disorder is more about smaller perceived flaws such as balding or the size of your nose. (The Mayo Clinic does say that Body Dysmorphic Disorder can cause or be associated with eating disorders, low self-esteem, mood disorders, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and substance abuse. The DSM-5 does not classify Body Dysmorphia as an eating disorder. It’s confusing.)

    One of the dangers of Body Dysmorphic Disorder is overuse of plastic surgery, which can be somewhat of an addiction in itself. Just watch a few episodes of the TV series Botched and you’ll see what I mean. There are always horror stories like the one in which a young man wanted to look like Michael Jackson and as a result of repeated surgery suffered the same health problems and conditions that the singer did.

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    Does BDD get worse with age?

    Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) can worsen with age if left undiagnosed or untreated in the early teenage years. Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) can worsen with age if not diagnosed and managed early. BDD is a mental health condition in which a person becomes extra conscious about their perceived flaws and defects.


    Body Dysmorphia + Triggers

    A combination of environmental, psychological, and biological factors. Bullying or teasing may create or foster the feelings of inadequacy, shame, and fear of ridicule.

    Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a serious mental illness. This is a psychiatric disorder that is related to obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). It most commonly begins around puberty, and it affects both men and women#BDD #triggers

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    BPD & Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)

    A mental health condition where a person spends a lot of time worrying about flaws in their appearance. These flaws are often unnoticeable to others. People of any age can have BDD, but it's most common in teenagers and young adults. It affects both men and women.#BodyDysmorphicDisorder #BPD #MentalHealth


    Should I get a weight scale? **Opinions welcome**

    Quick facts:
    - I am diagnosed BP2, Anxiety & Panic Disorder, OCD, ADHD, Insomnia for many years
    - I cycle on and off meds every few years. Currently on meds.
    - I have had weight issues my whole life. My weight has a history of extreme fluctuations.
    - I watch what I eat, I don’t always eat healthy, I work out a few times a week, I try to be aware of of the nutrition of what I’m eating, I cut back 95% on alcohol the past 3-4 months.

    Opinions welcome: Should I get a weight scale?

    - I should get a weight scale: so I know how much I way, I can see I’m gaining or losing weight, it could motivate me to lose the last 20 lbs, it can help me adjust my diet and my workouts, better workouts are scientifically proven to be good for my bipolar & anxiety, motivate me to workout consistently and make better food options, help me live longer, be proud of mg body and weight and health.

    - I should NOT get a weight scale: because I will become obsessed, depressed, anxious, and spiral.

    #CheckInWithMe #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #ADHD #Depression #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #MentalHealth #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder

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    Body Dysmorphia

    I love the way my braider does my hair.
    But looking at this picture, all I can think of is how fat my neck is😢😥
    I workout everyday, I eat relatively healthy and I walk my dogs when the weather is nice. But for some reason I have this disgust in my body. I'm having major body dysmorphia feelings right now. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, how come I still look and feel fat no matter what?! It's so frustrating🥺


    R. & T.-5

    I'm thinking this is normal but here it is:
    I'm part of a Group & I Get, For Lack Of A Better Term, Ungrouped So I've Got Redo It Each Time.
    Also, When I Heart Something, It Doesn't Always Stayed Hearted.
    I Think It's The App Acting Up But I'm Not Sure?.;;;;

    Anyway, On To Todays' Post.
    I Struggle To Wear Makeup.
    Sometimes I'm Able To, Using Mantras, & Sometimes Mantras Just Don't Work & I End Up Having To Take It Off Immediately.

    As I've Mentioned, In Other Posts, She's The Reason I've Got Body Dysmorphia & Eating Issues.
    Another Thing Is Self Care.
    I'm Still Learning About That & How To Implement It; Also, It's A Daily Struggle To Do So; Sometimes It's An OutRight Battle.
    Sometimes I'm Victorious(Or, At Least, Partially Victorious) & Sometimes I Don't Win.

    I Wasn't Allowed To Explore Myself In Any Sort Of Way As A Child.
    This Included Being Able To Go Through The Different Styles & Decide Which One Expressed My Personality-& This Myself-To The Fullest Capacity.
    I Had To Go Through This Process As An Adult & I Can Positively Say It Was Hell-Pure Hell.
    While Adults Will Show Compassion & Understanding Towards A Child Going Through This, When It Comes To A Fellow Adult Going Through This, It's THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE!.
    They're Cruel-Sometimes OutRight Abusive, Show NO Compassion, Empathy, & Understanding, & Are Judgmental, Condescending, & Harshly Critical.
    This Horror Caused The Process To Be Prolonged By Yr.s-Instead Of It Taking Yr. It Took Far More.
    This Is Because I Not Only Had To Deal With This Crap But I, Also, Had To Deal With(& Overcome) The Internal Crap As Well.
    There Are Still Times Where I'll Have To Get Out Reminders-& Mantras- & Keep Repeating These To Myself Till I'm On Steady Ground Again.;;;

    The Impact My M.D. Had Was:
    Caused Me To Be Terrified Of Men-To The Point Of Panic.
    Now, Through Hard Work, I Just Get Uneasy & Anxious-As Long As A Man Stays Zen; If He Gets Upset &/Or Angered All Bets Are Off(As The Old Saying Goes).

    This Leads Into The Other Thing:
    Fear Of Rage.
    Particularly In Straight Men.

    Through It All I Do My Best To Keep In Mind 1 Mantra Above All:
    "You're An Adult. You're Power Is Your Own. If You Give In You're Giving You're Giving Your Power Away To The Past & To Your Abusers.
    DON'T Do This!.
    YOU Deserve To Win & Be Victorious-NOT THEM!!."



    Sharing-Pt. 31(Pt. 2)

    One Of Many Areas That I Think Don't Get Talked About Often Enough Is: Body Dysmorphia.
    Today I Want To Share My Expierience & Struggle With That.;;;

    This May Come As A Shock To People BUT I Never Saw Myself As A Child.
    It Was Only Along The Way, On My Recovery Journey, That I Started Seeing Myself.
    It'd Be Sporadic. I'd See Myself, Briefly, Than My Image Would Be Gone.
    It'd Be Replaced By This Void.
    Nothing In It, Totally Blacked Out, & Never-Ending(Or So It Seemed) Void.

    When I Was 26, After LOTS Of Hard Work, I FINALLY Started Seeing Myself 24/7!.
    It Was A Major Achievement For Me.
    Fast Forward To Now.
    Now, Because Of 3 Yr.s Of Severe Abuse That I Went Through-Worse Abuse Than I'd Previously Endured-I'm Having Issues With Body Dysmorphia Once Again.
    This Time It's Different.
    This Time I See My Image BUT It's Not My Image.
    Intellectually I Realize(& Know) That What I'm Seeing Is Me YET, On EVERY Other Level, I'm NOT Able To Grasp, Comprehend,Understand, & Feel This.
    I Don't Feel Connected To The Image & I Don't Feel Like The Image Is Connected To Me.
    It Feels Like The Image Belongs To Another Person-How Can It Be Me?.

    I've Lost Ground In Alot Of Areas Of My Recovery & This Is One Of Them.
    I've Had To Force Myself To Look In Mirrors & To Touch The Image I See There Just So That I Can Connect The Image To Myself.
    I'm Praying(& Hoping) To Regain Ground Soon.

    Another Area Of Body Dysmorphia That I Forgot To Talk About Is The Way One Sees(& Percieves) Their Own Body.
    I've Had ALOT Of Trouble With This Aspect As Well!.
    As An Example:
    There've Been Times Where I'll Think I'm SO Fat!.
    Turns Out I Thought I Was 100 pounds More Than I Was( Or A Little Under 100 pd.s).
    Usually If I'm Told By Multiple Persons That I'm Not As Fat As I Think I Am I'll Believe That.
    Other Times All I've Got To do Is Try On Clotges.
    It Depends On How Bad My Mental State Is-At Any Given Point.
    Sometimes Trying On Clothes DOESN'T Work & Sends Me Spiraling.

    Another Thing That Makes This Battle Even Tougher(& Harder) Is My Own Mother.
    She Suffers From Body Dysmorphia(Amongst Other Things).
    She NEVER Wants To Take A Good,Long, & Hard Look At Herself So She Projects Onto Me!.
    There Are Times Where It's EXTREMELY Hard To Ignore & Dismiss Her!.

    I'm Praying(& Hoping) That One Day I'll Overcome This.
    Maybe Before I'm 36-Let Alone An Older Age Like 40-?;Who Knows?.
    It Could Happen & This Optimistic View Is What I'll Cling To.


    I'm new here!

    Hi, my name is MistyP111. I'm here because I have been really struggling with basic self care, & have experienced a lot of trauma. Looking to better understand myself psychologically. Also, I have many more conditions/disorders than is hashtagged below lol

    #MightyTogether #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Crohn 'sDisease#OCD #Grief #BodyDysmorphicDisorder

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    What’s one good thing you can say about your body today?

    It’s so common to have a difficult relationship with your body.

    It could be a mental component of how you feel in your body or your perception of how you look.

    It could be a physical component of how illness or disability impacts daily life.

    It’s easy to fixate on the “wish I was” or “could be if I did X or if X worked for me.”

    So today I challenge you to celebrate your body as it exists right now in this moment. What is one good thing you can say about your body today? This is mine:

    I’m really proud of how agile my body has become. It’s been a goal of mine and today I really saw the fruits of my labor while dancing today and it felt so good!

    Share yours in the comments!

    #MentalHealth #ChronicIllness #Disability #Bipolar #Bipolar1Disorder #Bipolar2Disorder #BipolarDepression #Cancer #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Fatigue #Depression #Anxiety #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #CheerMeOn