Full of CAN’T
I’m not complaining. I am so grateful to have a roof over my head and air conditioning. But I’m just really struggling today. Along with the Covid Lockdown I also live in Northern CA and most of this region is on fire. So the smoke and air quality is dangerous too. So I’m struggling with “can’t.” I can’t go outside to walk. I can’t go to the store I can’t go to church. I can.....so long as I don’t engage with anyone, touch them, hug them, breathe on them, and stay under my protective facial covering.
Perhaps I am just a rebel.
But I really find it more oppressing being told when I “can’t” versus it being of my own choosing. My mental battles just compound the effects.