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    I can’t make myself throw up. I tried everything and I just can’t. After I binge I feel like a failure doubly. The next day I fast few h and again.

    #BulimiaNervosa #Vomiting #Fasting #BingeEatingDisorder #BINGE #EatingDisorders

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    I’m new here!

    Hi, my name is Gosia. I'm here because for years I’ve struggled with bulimia, compulsive, binge eating and obsessive thoughts about food, diets and exercises. I spend lots of time and energy on it and I’m just exhausted at this point, nothing of this helped me with weight loss, it’s getting even worse.

    #MightyTogether #EatingDisorder

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    I’m new here!

    Hi, my name is Gosia. I'm here because for years I’ve struggled with bulimia, compulsive, binge eating and obsessive thoughts about food, diets and exercises. I spend lots of time and energy on it and I’m just exhausted at this point, nothing of this helped me with weight loss, it’s getting even worse.

    #MightyTogether #EatingDisorder

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    The Voice of my Eating Disorder

    The voice of the Eating Disorder is a never-ending dialogue that plays inside the mind on a daily basis. That constant reminder and whisper in your inner thoughts keeping you in check, keeping you focused on the most important thing; not to gain weight.

    You came into my life in a time of great fear, unknown and vulnerability. A young girl unable to decipher the waves of intangible emotions and feelings into anything comprehensible. With no tools to navigate the displacement of a large volume of emotions intensifies… that’s when you show up and our journey begins. Naively unaware of the appreciable cost this will entail.

    You know me. You know what to say to keep me in your power. Caressing me with a sense of euphoria while purging my thoughts and then deserting me to navigate the daily come downs that relentlessly follow.

    You make you believe that you’re are my only friend. That I will be lost without you; that without you I will lose a part of myself, that I won’t be loved or accomplished, because without you… I am nothing.

    But the Eating Disorder voice is abusive. I am in an abusive relationship with that voice. I can’t ask for help because of the fear of losing that voice, that part of me forever. I can’t ask for help because of the guilt I feel for staying in it for so long. I can’t ask for help because of the fear of disgust from others. I can’t ask for help because I don’t want to gain weight.

    But am I not already experiencing all of that? I have lost apart of myself because of my eating disorder. I feel guilt every time I binge and purge because of my eating disorder. I feel disgust at myself because of my eating disorder. And for what… just so I don’t gain weight?

    I never feel good about myself or my accomplishments. I have become anxious, depressed and withdrawn, I self-medicate to surprise hunger, exasperate hunger, numb myself and keep myself in a state of lethargy. The self-critical voice weighing me down to the point of complacency. I have internalised the harmful rhetoric and have in turn made it my reality.

    But I know and have seen that I have the power to alter my reality and shape it, making space for another voice. Because I know I deserve to welcome the self-compassion voice and push away voice of the self-critical.

    You are loved and you are kind. I deeply care about you and I know without a doubt in the world that you will, and are, changing for the good. You are strong, focused and determined and you can do anything you put your mind to. You are louder than that voice that has been holding you back all these years.

    You have a fire inside of you that has been waiting to ignite. You can change the world. You can make a difference. You can be happy and successful. Whenever you feel as if you are being pulled back into the dark abyss – Remember that I love you and will always love you.

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    Your trauma is valid!

    Do not judge others’ pain as less or more than your own. Your experience has validity and meaning. Heal in your own time. 💛 #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #EatingDisorders #TraumaticBrainInjury #MightyTogether #LGBTQIA #KetamineTreatment

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    Who says you have to follow all the rules!? Express yourself!

    Be fantastic with your bad self! Have a great day!😃 #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #EatingDisorders #TraumaticBrainInjury #MightyTogether #LGBTQIA #KetamineTreatment

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    Friends can be in person or virtual. Open your heart and you will be surprised at what good there is out there!

    Embrace the possibility that your friend is out there waiting for you! You never know until you open your heart 💛 reach out and nourish those relationships. You’ll be surprised at the gifts that may await you. 😃 #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #EatingDisorders #TraumaticBrainInjury #MightyTogether #LGBTQIA #KetamineTreatment

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    Law of Attraction

    What do you guys think about this? Do you agree that the more you focus on something the bigger it gets? If so, what do you think happens when you focus on negativity? Do you think a change in perspective can help you? Or is this just silly talk?

    ~ Thanks to all. Thanks for all. ~

    Speaking of thanks for all, I was hoping we could acknowledge everyone who comments below. I know it seems like a small gesture, but many people here have never opened up to anyone before and being open and honest with strangers can be quite scary. So, if we could show our gratitude by giving their comment a simple reply or heart, I’m sure they would really appreciate your team support. What do you say?

    #MentalHealth #Depression #Suicide #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Addiction #dissociativedisorders #OCD #ADHD #Fibromyalgia #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #POTS #PTSD #Cancer #RareDisease #Disability #Autism #Diabetes #EatingDisorders #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #RheumatoidArthritis #Schizophrenia #ComplexRegionalPainSyndrome

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