Really struggling with the fact it's truly over with my ex
I've come back to this site from a very long hiatus because the people around me in real life don't really care about mental health and know her well, I can't talk to my online friends about it because I'll be ridiculed and told to go to someplace like this instead.
I was really happy and content with my life until about an hour ago now. My ex of sorts broke everything off for good. A good few years relationship and a couple months of leading me on, me thinking she wanted to get back together but was just a little scared, and it's finally over. She told me she led me on like that because she's a people pleaser and "saw how in love I still was with her". I just wanna know, why would she do this? I asked and she won't tell me. I could have moved on completely by now if she just didn't do that. She wasted hours of my time doing this. I'm just so angry and disappointed I hardly know the words to say. I don't think she knows just how negatively she's affected me with all of this. To think you're loved but in reality it's all a sham. I just wanna block her. I wanna tell her I never wanna see her again but I don't have the guts and I promised her I wouldn't. Just why me man? I've already gone through enough breakups. I really thought she loved me and cared for me. I feel a bit used. I feel like I can't be loved and all of this happening is my fault, and all of this happened because of the incident that broke us up. #breakup #FourthOfJuly #Depression