Join the Conversation on
1.7K people
0 stories
151 posts
Note: The hashtags you follow are publicly viewable on your profile; you can change this at any time.
  • Explore Our Newsletters
  • What's New in AloneTogether
    See full photo

    Been put on bed rest .... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare

    So after a good few days with new excruciating pain in my side and back I went to hospital lastnight ,I have a severe kidney infection ,and dehydration after getting fluids etc I managed to talk them in to allowing me hone to rest as its the little ones birthday tomorrow, I have enough going on and I'm back I next week for few more skin cancer biopsies. So have even given antibiotics, hydration sachets , and more painkillers.if it doesn't improve in 48 hours I have to go back in .So I am on strict bed rest and to be honest I can barely move I'm doubled over In pain so couldn't do anything even if I wanted to.

    Feel so fed up ad it's just constant health issues ,my body is already weak and not strong enough to fight this infection which is why its worse.

    Just feel very overwhelmed with the things I already struggle with and now this.

    I am physically and mentally drained .

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #Toxic #Abuse #youmatter #beyou #loveyourself #Bekind #Insomnia #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Endometriosis #Upallnight #CheckInWithMe #GeneralParenting #Parenting #PTSD

    See full photo

    Things just go from bad to worse! #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD

    Just when I thought things couldn't get worse ! After over a year of issues with the neighbour and constant trouble (not involving me in specific )but obviously it does as its been constant and trouble and police incidents, her car was blown up and set on fire other night and we had to be evacuated out the house in the middle of the are absolutely terrified as am I. Doc has prescribed me stronger tablets to help with sleeping and able to relax due to how bad I am right now.We can't live at our home anymore now due to it and the kids go back to school in 2 days.Weve been put in a b&b (which is horrendous)justnow and no where near our home, I currently have a small sofa in the room infront of the door so I can feel safe with the kids due to the type of place this is.But I am grateful to have somewhere.this is until can get a temporary accommodation.I thought my depression qnd anxiety was bad before this but this is on a whole new level,attacks,nightmares, flashbacks,constantly anxious .I feel like I'm such a failure for the fact my kids are having to go through this.i just feel absolutely numb now and don't think I can take anything else.

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #Toxic #Abuse #youmatter #beyou #loveyourself #Bekind #Insomnia #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Endometriosis #Upallnight #CheckInWithMe #COVID19 #longcovid

    See full photo

    For anyone who needs to hear it today .... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe #PTSD

    For anyone who needs to hear this today you are awesome!!!
    Even if you don't feel like it lately or due to your health you feel like you are failing as a person, a friend, even a parent.You are STILL here , you give your best that YOU can each day even if all it is somedays is just dragging yourself through the day you STILL managed it .
    So always remember you MATTER ❤
    You are AWESOME ♥️
    You are IMPORTANT ♥️
    You are NOT ALONE ♥️

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Upallnight #Bekind #AloneTogether #youmatter #Parenting #GeneralParenting

    See full photo

    Mum guilt ..... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe

    So this week I've had a change in medication, I've been trying really hard to get caught up on the house and get things sorted .I've actually done alot considering when I think this time last week the way the house was and how it was making me feel worse and like a failure .it was a daily reminder of how much I struggle now and recently how bad I've gotten. So getting their rooms all done and sorted and more or less all rooms tidied,cleaned,cleared out and made it feel like a hone that I enjoy being in again made me feel better and they loved now having their rooms all done with all their new accessories and things set up the way they've wanted .BUT then I have total mum guilt that I should have had them out or should have been doing things with them .We've had days away,trips ,outings etc ,done few fun things at home too over past few weeks but I always feel it's not enough and i get on top of one problem and feel like I give myself another to deal with and have guilt over !!!
    My depression has gotten the worst its been along side my anxiety that's why I had a change in medication but obviously it's not changed as such yet , my pains been bad this week too with doing so much so although I'm relieved ive gotten so much done and managed to actually start it and like the way it's all looking and been able to go to bed everynight this week knowing the rooms are all organised and tidy (even though I haven't slept really when going to bed )I am overwhelmed with guilt,pain and overthinking now.

    My mood is so up and down and can go from 0-100 so quickly and I'm still feeling very agitated and grumpy,tiredness and no sleep obviously is making it worse.

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Bekind #longcovid #COVID19 #loveyourself #GeneralParenting #Parenting #AloneTogether

    See full photo

    Another thing done ..... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe

    So another day and another room in the house sorted.Going to bed tonight feeling a bit better that I am slowly but surely getting there and the fact that I am really trying !!

    Still alot to get done in the house but atleast both their rooms are all fixed and now this is done.
    I'm physically and mentally exhausted, my body is in agony and I know I'm really pushing it these past few days but it does feel good being able to go into bed and knowing I've managed to get so much done and when I wake up I'm waking up to it being tidied and sorted and can then focus on the rest.
    One little thing at a time I've been giving myself and trying to help my anxiety and depression through the days as I was really at my worst and being surrounded by things I hadn't got done ,mess, daily stuff I should have been doing but couldn't due to my pain or my depression being too overwhelming and it was all making me so much worse especially when each day I don't know how I'm going to feel, how bad my pains going to be or if il even have the strength to do what I have too.

    Not slept really now anymore than 2/3 hours for last 3 nights ,it's my second night of new medication so hopefully can get a bit of a sleep ,wake up not feeling as rubbish and sore tomorrow and can try get some more done.
    So hopefully tomorrow can be another positive day ♥️

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #PTSD #COVID19 #longcovid #loveyourself #GeneralParenting #Parenting #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Upallnight #SkinCancer #Endometriosis #Bekind #AloneTogether #HeyEmma

    See full photo

    Tonight's a crappy night...... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Toxic #Abuse #narcissist

    It's different now , I knew I had to walk away.There were way more negative feelings or situations than positive. The list of all the hurtful things said and done was constantly growing.Instead of getting excited or looking forward to seeing him ,I got instant anxiety and would just be awaiting the next complaint,or argument or thing he would say.
    He knows now I won't see him ,I don't go like I used to ,I don't answer the calls ,I don't give in to responding to the messages or even back and forth arguments like I always would before , I gave up .I didn't want to do it anymore.i didn't want to listen.I didn't believe or trust anything and had spent numerous sleepless nights upset and stressed over it all.

    I know it's the best thing especially for my mental health and with everything else I'm going through.I think back now and realise how much of a total idiot I obviously was.

    Yet tonight he messaged and I still didn't give in but my anxiety is through the roof, I still hurt ,I think about something from the relationship or about him and it hurts !!!then I have to remind myself why I'm hurt in the first place !! I just wish although it's the best thing to do and I know it ,i could switch off the fact that I care and stop myself from letting it get into my head like this !!!!!

    It's so easy reminding myself why I let go and why I walked away ,why the he'll is it so hard to then stop hurting or let it get to me way it does ...

    #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Upallnight #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #Relationships #loveyourself #Bekind

    See full photo

    Really makes a difference... #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Selfcare #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD

    When you finally remove someone who only causes you anxiety and constant negativity it really makes a huge difference. Its as though eventually something just clicks and you see it so clearly.All those times of accepting the crap , letting things go when you shouldn't tolerate it , letting it get to a point where it really just messes with your head and causes so much more anxiety and hurt. It had just clicked and I thought WTF has been wrong with me ??Why have I allowed this to effect me so much ?? Why have I let it tear me apart and loose myself while putting up with it for so long??

    When it happens it's like You actually feel so differently about that person now , you just see them for the negative , selfish , maniplulative person that they are.
    There's no more chances, you don't even want to argue or fight because it's way past that now your just done with it all.
    When there's so many more negative things than positive that a person brings to you or causes you that's when you know its got to stop.

    The anxiety feels lighter to handle , you feel like your not trapped inside your own head with it all anymore.

    No one should treat you this way but if they do it's such a relief when you finally get the strength to see it as it as and understand that removing them will make your life so much easier .

    #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Upallnight #SkinCancer #Endometriosis #COVID19 #longcovid #loveyourself #GeneralParenting #Parenting #Anxiety #Depression #Bekind #Toxic #Abuse #youmatter #narcissist #AloneTogether #HeyEmma

    See full photo

    Really going to try.... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #CheckInWithMe

    I'm really going to try , not tonight as I'm gutted that I wasn't able to go out as I know it probably would have been a great night and I'd have enjoyed it once out ,well that's my positive thinking I may felt uncomfortable and overwhelmed and came back home because not are the last time I was out with the girls or in any environment like that.

    But I'd have been happy I went atleast and tried that's a massive step I'd say.
    But the fact I got all ready and then let my head ,and all the negative stuff and my insecurities get the better of me I'm gutted !!I'm angry qnd frustrated at myself that on top of everything else I couldn't do it ! Especially after always saying no for so long recently and feeling a little excited qnd got myself all ready. The fact I am now currently in bed I am gutted at myself , frustrated and angry that this is another thing now I am suffering with because of all the health changes.

    Mental health is sometimes just absolutely debilitating and far too overwhelming!!

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #Toxic #Abuse #youmatter #beyou #loveyourself #Bekind #Insomnia #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Endometriosis #Upallnight #CheckInWithMe #HeyEmma #longcovid #Insecure #COVID19

    See full photo

    Well not tonight I guess !..... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Insecure

    Well for the first time in absolutely ages and I mean ages , I agreed to meet up with the girls in town .I actually felt excited I got all ready like full ready ,changed my outfit about 4 times done my hair ,face everything !!I am now currently back in bed with my pj's on watching Netflix!!
    My health's got so bad and some of the effects physically I just hate .Weight loss, severe hair loss,fatigue, my constant sickness and especially my confidence .I used to be happy with myself and how I felt and looked.i was content .I didn't really bother about anything.Itd not even about anyone else's opinions it's about how I feel when I look at myself ,all the changes that I notice.My scars that can now be seen ,especiallythe large one on side of my face I can no longer hide with my hair down due to how sever the hair loss has been can't even put it down properly anymore and that was like my comfort blanket in ways .I just absolutely have lost myself altogether. My crippling anxiety has been very bad the past week anyways so that's definitely not helping , but I was handling that and got ready and felt good until I stood and looked at myself 😭😭😭😭😭.

    Hope everyone is having a safe, happy day 😊

    #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #Toxic #Abuse #youmatter #beyou #loveyourself #Bekind #Insomnia #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Endometriosis #Upallnight #CheckInWithMe #HeyEmma #longcovid #Insecure #COVID19 #lost #overwhelmed

    See full photo

    Took me long enough ... #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare

    So many times I have allowed myself to be hurt,allowed behaviour that I thought I'd never accept.Have blamed myself and let it get so bad that I couldn't recognise myself anymore.I lost respect for myself meaning I allowed others to disrespect me.

    It's taken me long enough to realise that I made so many excuses for others behaviour and way they were to me and and even believed the crap I was told thinking it was me and that I deserved it.

    I wish I had realised sooner then maybe I wouldn't have been hurt so bad or let it happen so long.

    The way people treat you really is the way they excuses, no mistakes !If they qct like they don't care then THEY DONT CARE !!

    As much as it hurts and will be difficult once you realise it really is for the best.

    You have to recognise your worth , you have to stop allowing things that hurt you and cause you pain.
    You have to love yourself enough to not allow anything or anyone in your life that's not positive for you .

    When you feel something is off ,or someone isn't genuine trust your gut your it's usually right .

    Your not alone ♥️ You do matter ♥️
    You are Important ♥️

    #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Selfcare #Anxiety #Depression #longcovid #Upallnight #Parenting #GeneralParenting #Bekind #Insomnia #SkinCancer #narcissist #AloneTogether #Endometriosis #COVID19 #loveyourself #PTSD