My suicide attempt was exhausting and traumatizing. I spent a week in the hospital following it that left me feeling afraid and spent. However, I walked away with three lessons I may not have learned otherwise. I’d like to share them with you.
1) Ask for help- before it’s too late.
When friends asked, I told them I was okay, just going through a phase. This, obviously, could not have been further from the truth. It’s better to ask for help now than to wish you had later. Had I received help sooner, I may have avoided a traumatizing stay in the behavioral health ward of the hospital. Regardless, I learned from my experience the importance of reaching out when you need it. Call or text a suicide hotline, phone a friend, talk with a family member. Most importantly, don’t pretend you’re okay if you’re not.
2) People care.
Instead of being abandoned, I found myself surrounded by love and support. My family, friends and pastors leaned in instead of turning away. With their help, I was able to slowly recover and find mental wellness.
3) There is hope.
No matter how hopeless the moment feels-which can be pretty damn hopeless- I have found there really is hope. Things do, in my experience, get better. I would have missed out on my fiancé proposing, getting my dog, and getting a new job. I would have missed out on the smaller things too, like time with my family and the way the air feels on a chilly day. I’m incredibly grateful I have not missed these things and that I have gotten to be here for them. No matter how dire the circumstance, you can come out on the other side.
Suicide is a real threat to lives in our communities, and I hope you can take these lessons from my experience rather than having to learn them on your own. While my attempt was traumatizing, I walked away stronger and more resilient. I hope you are able to find peace. Recovery is out there, it’s real, and it’s possible.
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