I’m in the process of moving on from an abusive relationship, and the person who’s helping me on that has shown me that it is possible to feel truly and completely comfortable and loved wh#en you are with someone.
The person I used to be with used to get angry at me every time I didn’t check Whatsapp because of depression, he would rant about it whenever we met. The blame would always be on me, and if I said something bothered me, he would say that it was an effect of my attitude. He even hacked my phone because I wasn’t answering his texts, and showed up at my house three times in the same day.
I met someone when I was on holiday, my ex had gone to the same place and texted me everyday to see me. I spent a week with some friends and this new person. I found myself wanting to stay him instead of meeting my ex. I only saw him a couple hours before leaving, and he was mad at me.
Me and this new guy started talking til the point that we would talk everyday. He was comprehensive, and would ask for my mental health every time he would perceive that I was a bit off. One day we met to have a coffee and I can’t explain how comfortable I felt. He made me feel that he cared about me, even if it wasn’t romantic.
One day we had planned to meet and my grandmother died. He immediately told me that it was okay if I cancelled, and that if I wanted to meet he would be there for me. My ex hadn’t texted me in a week so I didn’t told him.
By the next time we met with this person, my ex and I hadn’t spoken for a month, I had tried to contact him but he wouldn’t answer.
With time, the way me and the guy wrote to each other started to get more romantic, until the point where one day we ended up kissing, and then going out and acting like a couple.
In the middle of all this, my ex decided to text me and told me to meet. At that point I had decided that I wanted to end thing for good. He started to blame everything on me, dismissed the fact that my grandma had died and that I had entered to the hospital after having a really bad episode. He admitted to having hacked my phone again and got mad when he saw I was talking to the other guy. He made me feel terrible, as if I had to forgive him for everything and I was the bad guy of the story. Before we left he told me he would text me that same night. It’s been about a month and I haven’t known anything about him.
I am talking to the guy I met on my holidays, and the relationship is quite serious now.
I deleted all the chats with my ex, and everything that had to do with him.
To all of those who find themselves in an abusive and toxic relation, I hope this can help you at least a tiny bit to escape that. There is someone out there that will find you and take you just the way you are. Healthy people exist. Healthy relationships exist. Feeling loved and cared exists. And you deserve that and much more. #AbusiveRelationship #Depression #Bipolar2Disorder #loveyourself #Love #overcoming #toxicrelationship #Boyfriend
It is my one year anniversary (to the week) of being hospitalized from a suicide attempt. I am struggling, but wanted to turn this energy into something positive. How can I celebrate how far I've come in a healthy way? What do you do, write, paint, draw, buy, eat, etc. to celebrate your mental health milestones?
Freedom and peace. Freedom and peace. I am 44 years young and have been controlled by a domineering person in my life. I am in need of freedom and peace. I unfortunately and fortunately got myself into financial/legal trouble. My only help was/is the domineering person. I recently was hospitalized for a psychotic break. I had made so much progress. The root cause was depression/suicidal feelings acted out by disrupting my Mental Illness self care regimen. I lied about my thoughts and behavior to family and community friends. Despite having a lot of love and support in my life, I struggle with self hate/fear and GUILT. Fear of being alone when this domineering person passes away and fear of the evil in the world. Paranoid thoughts centered around religion. I truly am HAPPY when I am creating. I'm a writer/indie published author and graphic designer (Novice but love it). I am overwhelmed by constantly stressing out about FIXING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. I am learning that GOD has that job I am supposed to recovering from my recent hospitalization. All day everyday I obsess over fixing my life myself. I'm an ambitious, egotistical visionary. I am not going to give up. This is all a big test and resilience is in my DNA. If you feel like I do I welcome your thoughts
and experience. God bless you and keep on Winning by being yourself, enjoy your gifts/talents. Smile, laugh and focus on Light instead of darkness. You're here for a reason. Love Light Optimistic beliefs are tools to succeed/endure/ WIN😉 #mental Illness, #successful Life, #winning , #Gratitude ,#overcoming Fear, #overcoming Depression
Well, I got off course just a few moments ago. Not gonna let "yesterday's " pain ruin today. Moving into the present moment......i hear some classic A7X playing from my YouTube "like" playlist .....now 5FDP is on....& I'm digging it. Hmmmm just looked outside & is sunny & bright. It's going to be a good day (if I can help it)!!!
I've been chasing peace
to the ends of the earth
my mind has been bleak
broken and bare
I decided to seek
something so hard and rare
On the mend
The darkness receding
It's me that I'm seeing
rising up through the ashes
I'm finally free
and my wish for next year is to finally be me.
I captured this beautiful picture in a moment of serenity. I wish to bask in similiar serenity through this time of disruption.
Tears of hurt will not wash away the peace within my soul.
Overthinking and lacking confidence. When I trust my instincts and actually follow through with the things I tell myself I'm going to do, I feel over the moon. If only I could stop standing in my own way. It's self-destruction. Unfortunately, I'm really good at it. #overthinking #Anxiety #MentalHealthAwareness
I'm done with admiring the stars. I'm ready to become one. #overcoming
Started the morning off right with prayer, exercise, and eating breakfast. 2nd week on the job. Feeling a heaviness this morning that I can’t seem to shake. Many things on my mind, but I’m learning to give God those things. Believing that this will be a great day and nothing will distract me! Happy Monday! #overcoming
Despite #overcoming my entire self, I am #strong . Because no matter how many times I have wanted to call it a day, and head on up to #heaven ...I just do not have that option. I couldn't #bare to not be able to see, hug, laugh, snuggle, discipline, #raise my son and daughter. #Truelove #iamstrong #Toddlermom #axton #monroe