introspection

Being an introspective person is kinda overwhelming, because you're always analyzing your thoughts, emotions, and experiences, it helps you understand yourself better, but it can also make things feel heavier than they need to be. it can feel like there's no off switch. Sometimes, it leads to deep insights, but other times, it's just exhausting—especially when overthinking kicks in.

#introspection #Life #MentalHealth #psychology #selfreflection #selfawareness
#emotionalawareness

I’ve recently came to the conclusion that my introspection is pretty much non existent in the moment or when it comes to physical cues. I tend to find myself in little arguments without even realizing how I got here. Does anyone have any tips on how to improve that? #introspection #ADHD #Anxiety #CPTSD

The COVID-19 pandemic threw an unexpected and unwelcome kink in many of my spring semester plans, but it’s forced me to introspectively look deep within myself and I’ve been uncovering many repressed memories in the past. Like the realization that my “middle-class” immigrant family has always been working class, that my interest in psychology has been a life-long thing and due to these realizations along with intense contemplation on the life and legacy of my late therapist and mentor Mark and what I want my legacy to be. I’ve made the decision that after I graduate with my bachelor’s degree in history next semester, I’d like to switch disciplines and work my ass off to become a licensed psychologist specializing in emotional abuse and cognitive behavioral therapy. I don’t know how I’m going to pay for it and i don’t know how to tell my family because i know 90 percent of them will not support me. But I’m passionate about this and I have to believe in the possibility that I can do this.

I realize after hitting POST on my last thought, that I really wasn't missing 2017 me so much as struggling with my identity now as 2019 ends.

I am completely different than I was in 2017. I found a purpose in 2017 to be that wild, manic pixie dream girl type that has sex liberally and disappears the next morning while teaching her partner a deal about the spontaneity of life. Now, I lack purpose and identity, not allowing myself to take on anything of those around me for fear of appropriating something that is simply just not mine.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Identity #manicpixiedreamgirl #Mania #introspection